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		<title>Negative Space</title>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 09 Jul 2012 11:55:20 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>James</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p style="text-align: left;" align="center">Tacked awkwardly onto the end of a long-unopened file, I just stumbled upon the first work of fiction I ever intended to write. I was twenty-one. It&#8217;s been a decade. I&#8217;m someone that twenty-one-year-old wouldn&#8217;t recognize; I might be someone he wouldn&#8217;t like. I know I wouldn&#8217;t care for him—I didn&#8217;t like <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/negative-space/">Negative Space</a></span>]]></description>
				<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div id="tweetbutton2369" class="tw_button" style="float:right;margin-left:10px;"><a href="http://twitter.com/share?url=http%3A%2F%2Fsesquipedalism.com%2Fnegative-space%2F&amp;via=Sesquipedalism&amp;text=Negative%20Space&amp;related=&amp;lang=en&amp;count=vertical&amp;counturl=http%3A%2F%2Fsesquipedalism.com%2Fnegative-space%2F" class="twitter-share-button"  style="width:55px;height:22px;background:transparent url('http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/plugins/wp-tweet-button/tweetn.png') no-repeat  0 0;text-align:left;text-indent:-9999px;display:block;">Tweet</a></div><p style="text-align: left;" align="center"><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/07/images.jpeg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2369];player=img;" title="images"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2372" title="images" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/07/images-150x150.jpeg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>Tacked awkwardly onto the end of a long-unopened file, I just stumbled upon the first work of fiction I ever intended to write. I was twenty-one. It&#8217;s been a decade. I&#8217;m someone that twenty-one-year-old wouldn&#8217;t recognize; I might be someone he wouldn&#8217;t like. I know I wouldn&#8217;t care for him—I didn&#8217;t like him when I <em>was</em> him. But curiously, I don&#8217;t hate this.</p>
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<p style="text-align: left;" align="center">She’s gone. She has to be, he thinks, because there it is on the tiled and smoky slate countertop plain as anything. There it is, the only thing there. Alone on a stone shelf, like a sacrifice to some obscure god. That counter has never been clear, much less scrubbed and there it is, in the middle of a pristine and wan field. A centerpiece. 7:03 p.m. on an idle and tired Thursday night. This is when his heart drops out.</p>
<p>He’s come home tonight expecting the usual, expecting relief and reprieve from the day.  He’s come home expecting her to be in her chair, the vintage plum and velvet eggshell chair by the window. Looking out and waiting. Dreaming. That’s where she always is, always slightly vacant, always with a smile for him. Just as he’s relieved to be there, she’s relieved to have him back. On leaving, they became just an anonymous pair: a he and a she; on coming home they were reunited. <em>Love like in some French film</em>, he always thought.</p>
<p>“I guess not,” he says accidentally, he says to no one. He spins and takes it all in and surely enough things start to make sense. His paintings hang unframed on the window wall, the south wall. They hang on the north wall, dripping acrylic off of ragged canvas edges. The west and east are blank, but they hadn’t always been. She had hung paintings too, frames of purple skies and coastlines at night. Oil frescoes, masterpieces compared to his abstracted smears. They came down yesterday leaving pale spots on the nicotine shaded walls. Her blankets too, gone from the recovered couches, the tangerine couches.  Everything else is upstairs, was upstairs, at least. He’s afraid to look. Besides, everything that matters, he thinks, is on the kitchen counter. She wouldn’t do this. Her meticulous streak forbade her from leaving things around; she’d liken it to something unflattering, graphic and verbose. Slugs and their mucus. Like him. Everywhere she went she created and inspired order, organization. Everywhere he went he inspired chaos. Things falling apart. She had tried to change him and he resisted. He laughed it off. He thought himself endearing. And it all comes down to this: a mess. His mess. His milk cartons, his brushes, his knives, acrylic encrusted and strewn around the barely visible pale shag carpet. No sign of her except what’s on that imagined altar. This is so unlike her, would be so like him.</p>
<p>He did this to them, he thinks. He knows. He did this to himself. She’s so obviously gone, and rightly so, he thinks. There are a million ways to justify this, to justify her moving on. She was better than this, better than him. Him and his mess, him and his reluctance. Him and his aloofness. Him and this tiny, shit apartment. He paces through his wasteland now, his kingdom. His poetry lies crumpled and unbound on the floor. Reams of it. Handwritten in the sort of script that’s only appropriate for Goatskin bound copies of Baudelaire; that deep vermilion ink, the illegible cursive. Self-important nonsensical lines decorated with absinthe smears. It was for her, every ounce of his soul transmuted to phonetics and scribbles. She always only smiled, grabbed the front of his collar and kissed him lightly. He had thought it was enough. Fancied himself some romantic pauper king; imagined he was somehow a prize.</p>
<p>He could have done so much more.</p>
<p>If he could have written one thing truly <em>for her</em>, not as an affectation—as part of the solipsistic drama he’d made their life together, in which he played the Romantic Artist Extolling His Love—maybe she wouldn’t have gone. Maybe that thing wouldn’t be in the kitchen. That thing wouldn’t be lying in the only clean spot left in his life. Destroying. Effacing. Maybe it isn’t, he wonders, and strolls casually back to the kitchen, hands in pockets. Whistling. Acting. He’s impassive.</p>
<p>There it is.</p>
<p>From eight feet away in the archway he can already see it.</p>
<p>Impassivity fails. Real enough, it’s there.</p>
<p>If he could have written one true thing for her, he thinks. Then: <em>No. If I could have been somebody better, somebody  else.</em></p>
<p>It’s there: the glint of sliver, a coiled snake, the morning star in a field of early dawn, grey and automatic dawn. The stainless sink overfilled a foot away speaks to him. The other half of the counter jammed with his glasses. His plates. His mold. His filth. His mess. Back there, three or so feet to the left of his field of vision is the only thing that remains of her. The only proof that they were ever They, and not just He, She. Arbitrary pronouns, people. He’d always wanted to be a word man, a linguist. He’d half-assed some college English classes. He’d considered it before: “He” could mean anyone, “she” too. “We” is something, “we” is special. “We” is kinship, love. Inclusion; implied past and future. We: photographs and souvenirs and post-it notes and greeting cards. He/She: insignificance. We: minutiae. He now understood that there was a difference between the two.</p>
<p>A bit of that minutia, a trinket sits in his kitchen. His wreck of a kitchen. It is a single blind eye leering at him. How can something so small be so malevolent?</p>
<p>What was he expecting? What was he thinking, hoping?</p>
<p><em>Hope is cancer</em>, he thinks. Then:<em> hope creates exit wounds.</em></p>
<p>And that, he decides, is an idea. His eyebrows rise with inspiration. What’s the point of going on as one lonely pronoun? He sits down. He stands. He sits. This is a solution, rash as it may seem. This is all that can be. This is the only logical place to go from here. If she’s left like this, she’s made her choice. If she’s left like this she’s crossed the Rubicon.</p>
<p>Logic. Logic was her domain. Logic thrives on order, order on logic. And this could be his gift to her. The only logical thing. This cleans up the biggest mess he’s left, is leaving. This has nothing to do with emotion, he reasons, this is about sense and destiny. This is about one silver snake devouring itself; about the past decade of his life as a component part of We; about not ever being able to make that temporal investment again; about never finding anyone with whom he’d feel that sense of Home.</p>
<p>This is about what’s in the hall closet, top shelf, right hand side next to the ancient scarves and mittens his mother gave him that he never got around to throwing out. She had asked, he failed. She had insisted, he refused. She had accepted and he trod all over her.</p>
<p>Nothing new.</p>
<p>She and her good will, she and her tolerance. What was she thinking? He was no good, never any good, not enough. Never enough. She was the breath of the morning and he let it blow right by and through him. He should have done this long ago, and let her be. Let her move on, let her flower and flourish with someone else. Anyone else. Some more deserving He. Some more perfect We. Surely some other deserved her patience, her company so much more.</p>
<p>Little pathetic He. Selfish He.</p>
<p>He was the worst decision she ever made and every day he had a choice: become a better He or tell her to stop making that same choice every day—the choice to stay. <em>That</em> would have been loving her. Letting her go.</p>
<p>He stands again and walks to the archway. The item looming, glaring animate and sinister in the background. The gateway framing him, just inches above him in this shrunken hole of a home. He’s sure of it now. This is certainty, this is destiny. This is his justification for a life wasted, love wasted, words that had meaning washed down the plughole. This is a plan. The phone rings and he jumps, hitting his head on the drywall. The blazing and icy rent of pain screams down his spine, through his face. He tears up, blushing. A spot of crimson stares him in his upturned and grimacing face. Three blonde hairs stuck to the now crushed curve of the ceiling. He feels the warm and wet already on his neck.</p>
<p>“Hello?!” This comes out more frantic than he’d like. Betraying the calm of logic, of providence, of certainty and solemnity. Apocryphal hope: hair-thin and tied round his ankles, keeping him suspended a fathom above Bottom.</p>
<p>A serene and feminine voice crawls in, slinks in like a velveteen wolf. “Hello, this is AT &amp; T with a collect call from Cyril Dillon, will you accept the charges?”</p>
<p>He doesn’t know a Cyril Dillon. She didn’t know a Cyril Dillon. This is a wrong number. This is a slap in the face. His face, sticky to the eyebrows with sweat. “Sorry,” he says, and hangs up reeling. Where was he? What was going on?</p>
<p>A mess. His mess. His life. Absence. A snake swallowing its own tail. A symbol of infinity, of consecration. Supposedly. The meaning of symbols. The life behind things.</p>
<p>It all comes back too fast for him. The way he jumped when the phone rang—hopeful, desperate—that’s how it would be every single time from now on. The stomach sinking, the simpering, the empty pleading prayers proffered to any and all gods. Every time a phone rang. Every knock at the door. Every time he sat in a restaurant and saw the back of a head that might be hers. <em>I can’t</em>, he thinks. And he moves into the hallway towards the closet.</p>
<p>On fire now, with momentum now. With a purpose now. He opens the faux Venetian doors and gropes around the top. There. Black is a feeling, steel is a sensation. Hope creates exit wounds. And it’s there, in his hand, heavy and cool. The voice of reason.</p>
<p>He glides back into the living room. The eggshell chair. He kicks the chessboard over, which would scatter the pieces about were they not strewn already. His mess. He makes room, carves a niche for his grand and magnificent justice. He faces the window, streaked with nicotine and fingerprints. Her fingerprints. She. He presses his lips to them, but is disappointed to find they have no taste. There, outside, is the open expanse of sky where he’d like to be. Conservation of matter: nothing is destroyed, his being will become something, will decompose or be burnt, become energy or other matter. The wind in her hair, maybe, when She walks with some new He; walks tied in the tendrils of some new We. The dust on her shoes. He tries to smile at the idea. He checks his eyes: dry. <em>If I were a better man, I’d be crying</em>, he thinks. He opens his mouth to scream, but does not make a sound.</p>
<p>A scream would be selfish.</p>
<p>And somehow, the pressure is off now. He’s comfortable with this, complacent. Giving up: brain decompressed, expectation abated. <em>Is this what it feels like to do right?</em> he asks himself. He’s caught up in the flow of destiny, the path of logic. Sailing downstream in the current of the Way. The only way. This is correct. <em>If I were a better man, I’d have done this for her years ago.</em></p>
<p>He feels he can hear in earnest the symbolism of death and escape so tangible, he guesses, this close to the end. The sound of a door slamming. Enlightenment, liberation. He’s cleaning up the mess of himself. He’s freeing himself from the pain of deficiency, of lowliness; loneliness. Hope.</p>
<p>“There it is! Christ, I thought I lost it on the train… Honey?”</p>
<p>This is her. Is this her? The gun in his mouth, has he pulled the trigger? Is this the other side, his perdition a reenactment of what should have been?</p>
<p>“Honey?” she asks tremulously as she spins the chair clockwise on its base to face her.</p>
<p>The gun down, what he can muster is “Hey.”</p>
<p>“What the hell are you doing?”</p>
<p>All he can find within him, “Your ring was in the kitchen.”</p>
<p>“Yeah, I took it off to clean and then I got distracted trying to figure out what to put back on the walls. Too many projects, I guess. I felt naked all afternoon—cashing a paycheck has become an all day process, did you know that?” She looks into his lap. “What the hell are you doing with that?”</p>
<p>“The paintings needed changing?”</p>
<p>“Yeah don’t you think? I hate those seascapes. I’ve got my stuff laying out on the bed upstairs, I was trying to pick something out we’d both like. Something that’d go better with those hideous couches instead of all that purple.”</p>
<p>“Oh,” he says.</p>
<p>I thought you were going to get rid of that thing. It’s not safe to have it here—you know you’re way more likely to hurt a loved one than a criminal.”</p>
<p>“They say that.”</p>
<p>“You hungry? I brought home tofu.”</p>
<p>She walks back to the kitchen; this is just another day. 8:00 on an idle and tired Thursday. Just another dinner. Just another summer sunset outside now, starting to turn that burnt and raw orange. He’s in the chair, still, inert. Static. He raises two fingers to his neck, checks his pulse: a drum roll. She’s really here, he’s really here. We<em> are here</em>, he thinks.</p>
<p>He hears the ceramic clink of bowls being pulled from the cupboard. She hums an old Bobby Darin tune. He wants to go to her but he can’t stand, can’t breathe. He looks down to his left hand, puts the safety back to its normal position, but is unsure whether or not that is the right thing to do. <em></em></p>
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		<title>Presents</title>
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		<pubDate>Sat, 30 Jun 2012 10:30:46 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>James</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p></p> <p>As is evident from even a cursory examination of the post dates of this website, it&#8217;s been a while since I clicked digits on keyboard with the intention of creating or, as was the case this evening, put an actual pen to actual paper. And, as I&#8217;ve recently kvetched elsewhere about my lack of writing <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/unwrapping/">Presents</a></span>]]></description>
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<p>As is evident from even a cursory examination of the post dates of this website, it&#8217;s been a while since I clicked digits on keyboard with the intention of creating or, as was the case this evening, put an actual pen to actual paper. And, as I&#8217;ve recently <em>kvetched</em> elsewhere about my lack of writing time and/or how far off-track I&#8217;ve come, I figured maybe it&#8217;d be best for me to publish something proving that cheap tequila, a darkened bar, and singing along to maudlin songs doesn&#8217;t necessarily mean one cannot or is not creating.</p>
<p>It ain&#8217;t much, but it&#8217;s 163 more words than I had last afternoon.</p>
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<p>Some hearts are meticulously wrapped packages—thin, crisp-cornered, glistening green, adorned by crenellated red ribbon, and carefully positioned underneath the tree. And some lovers, well-intentioned but with such zeal, are greedy preteens bursting from bedrooms, descending steps three-by-three, only to leap the last five entirely, and land hard on the knees. They clip the crimson trimmings with teeth, shred that emerald paper &#8217;til it resembles the rind of an orange devoured using only the mouth.</p>
<p>In such cases, the mind beholden to that heart is an anxious parent on the couch, clutching a cup of something once hot gone cold, quadriceps clenched, legs tucked under butt, patiently waiting to see if the delicate present once within has survived such enthusiastic exposition, or if sellotape and an explanation will be required for an attempt to reassemble that thing frangible and handmade which, no matter what, will never be the same, and would possibly have not been wanted by whatever lover in the first place.</p>
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		<title>Still Missing Flight Myself</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 19 Jun 2012 09:48:39 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>James</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p>I&#8217;m pleased to announce that my collected poems are now available for purchase as Still Missing Flight Myself. </p> <p>Some of the best cautionary advice that could be given any writer—young or old, famous or obsucre—is to never forget that not every word you write will be worth preserving. Much of any writer&#8217;s output is <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/still-missing-flight-myself/">Still Missing Flight Myself</a></span>]]></description>
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<p>Some of the best cautionary advice that could be given any writer—young or old, famous or obsucre—is to never forget that not every word you write will be worth preserving. Much of any writer&#8217;s output is junk. <em>Still Missing Flight Myself</em> is the end result of, in some cases, more than a decade of winnowing and tinkering. What was originally a 600-poem body of work has been reduced to just these 51—and that&#8217;s all that remains of nearly two decades worth of writing poetry.</p>
<p>Exploring moments of both transcendent beauty and abject desolation, this collection provides succinct glimpses into the unspectacular, average lives that most Americans have lead and will always lead—the lives most of us will go to extraordinary lengths to pretend we are not living. The disposable existence of a manicurist suddenly realized; the unexceptional loneliness of a fatherless child who has become used to his predicament; the minor frustrations of listening to an unjacketed LP; or driving home drunk enough to no longer care about the ramifications of drunk driving: the poems here collected expose and inflate quotidian moments until each seems like the paradox it actually is—simultaneously singularly significant and utterly, ineluctably forgettable.</p>
<p>Now available as a softcover trade paperback in the bookstore.</p>
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		<title>Magical Realism’s More Complete Mimesis in &#8220;The Narrative of Arthur Gordon Pym&#8221;</title>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 22 Mar 2012 09:55:34 +0000</pubDate>
		<dc:creator>James</dc:creator>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p style="text-align: left;" align="center">I.</p> <p>Where Poe’s arduous Arthur Gordon Pym is concerned, a completely satisfactory answer to a simple central question would push into proper position the tumblers of the complex combination lock its text has always seemed: is Pym constructed as a work of realism or as fantasy? It seems all critical analyses of <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/pym/">Magical Realism’s More Complete Mimesis in &#8220;The Narrative of Arthur Gordon Pym&#8221;</a></span>]]></description>
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<p>Where Poe’s arduous <em>Arthur Gordon </em>Pym is concerned, a completely satisfactory answer to a simple central question would push into proper position the tumblers of the complex combination lock its text has always seemed: is <em>Pym</em> constructed as a work of realism or as fantasy? It seems all critical analyses of <em>Pym</em> are predicated upon an answer to this question, implicitly or explicitly addressed. Robert Carringer’s “Circumscription of Space,” a last attempt at a formalist explication, bluntly asserts that “the novel fails to execute the basic properties of the genre,” but Carringer fails to make clear precisely <em>which</em> genre the novel fails to be: is it a blemished example of Poe’s macabre but ultimately realistic work, or a palsied version of one of his fantastical jaunts? (513). A survey of critical literature reveals a startling dearth of consensus.</p>
<p>Some scholars call the novel a deeply flawed, desperate attempt at a saleable work of conventional realistic exploration fiction, the sort of seafaring romance contemporaneously popular, or at least a mean-spirited parody of such, intended to do nothing but make money and quietly insult a readership for whom Poe had little respect. Contrary to John Hussey’s belief that “even the hastiest of its readers can testify that <em>Pym</em> is <em>not</em> a straightforward, ‘realistic’ narrative,” writers such as L.M. Cecil have constructed naturalistic explanations for all its “decidedly fantastic, symbolic and allegoric” idiosyncrasies—from its intratextual contradictions to the alien fauna near Tsalal, and the looming specter rising from the pole’s albified ocean (Hussey 29). Other articles interpret the work as an anti-black tract informed by the Biblical Curse of Ham, or, creatively, as an American reinvention of the Arthurian legends, complete with wandering hero and white Lady of the Lake. A surprising number of scholars still insist the work is unfinished, or merely the first volume of what was intended to be a larger project.</p>
<p>None of these arguments is completely convincing. A complication of critical readings of <em>Pym </em>is that, when any given set of the novel’s curious circumstances are explained, another set becomes at best enigmatic, at worst downright impossible. Binary interpretations of <em>Pym</em>—where the supernatural is either “on” or “off”—are exceedingly problematic. My contention is that all monomaniacal critical explorations are doomed to internal contradiction and eventual self-defeat because the answer to that central question—realism or fantasy?—is that the novel was, in fact, constructed to be <em>both</em>, simultaneously. <em>Pym</em> is, like its Dirk Peters, a half-breed: a literary curiosity for which, in 1838, there was no name, but which has come to be called “magical realism.” Further, if read as such, a plausible explanation for the novel’s elusive ending appears.</p>
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<p><strong>II. </strong></p>
<p>Jules Zanger understands this problem with binary interpretations of <em>Pym</em> and assumes the same central question as key to a comprehensive understanding of the novel. He asserts that a “perception of irresolution…stems from the apparent inconclusiveness of the last scene of the novel, which might be reduced to a question that is crucial to the scene: is the great white figure emerging from the mists real or supernatural?” (276). This essay will contend that the answer is, effectively, <em>both</em>. Zanger, however, chooses to answer <em>neither</em>; that the insoluble tension between mutually exclusive explanations of the novel’s events is purposive and actually what makes <em>Pym </em>remarkable. In other words, Zanger suggests that it is crucial to the work that one <em>not</em> answer that central question. To decide that <em>Pym</em> does/does not feature the genuinely supernatural/fantastic would result in a profoundly limiting, disappointing, and troublesome reading. “To answer that question…is to retroactively define the nature of the whole work. The text is composed of the matter of at least two distinctively different and antithetical genres…Any determination about that concluding scene immediately resolves the tension between these conflicting modes” (276). The problem with such resolution is that, whatever the answer, it would significantly diminish the worth or weight of half of the novel. Zanger is correct.</p>
<p><em>Pym</em> certainly thrives on tension between natural and supernatural explanations of its climaxes, and the decision, for example, whether the white giant at the end of Pym’s portion of the narrative is a god welcoming him to the netherworld, or an enormous polar iceberg illuminated in such a way as to look human, has deleterious results for an understanding of the text <em>in toto</em>. “To choose a realistic interpretation of the ending is to relegate the fantastic elements of the novel to delusions born of madness and suffering, a supernatural reading of the conclusion devalues and subverts the scientific aspect of the text and insists on [rational empiricism’s] inadequacy as a mode of perceiving the world” (277). Either/or readings diminish the work.</p>
<p>This conundrum affected more than Poe’s novel; it was inherent in the prevailing thought paradigms of Poe’s age. Zanger explains, “[r]omantic writers were faced by the problem of finding devices which permitted the retention of imagination, fantastic, and thrilling elements in their work while satisfying an audience whose vision of possibility was increasingly limited by common sense, Common Sense Philosophy, materialism, and the new sciences” (277). Several solutions existed, he continues, which would allow an author to have his or her cake and eat it too: the Radcliffean model allowed the most fantastical tale to unfurl, so long as, by its end, all of its supernatural or surreal elements were explained to be the result of natural processes; the dream formula—famously executed in Dickens’ <em>A Christmas Carol</em>—also allowed a writer to create stories touched but not hobbled by supernatural elements; and the unreliable narrator—drug-addled, insane, or a sociopathic liar—allowed for a story which could be riddled with supernatural elements, yet contain sufficient hints of plausible deniability to escape being labeled as sentimental pulp. These alternatives, however, produce a tale which may be quickly dismissed as thinly veiled realism. As such, all are either/or readings, and are delimiting explorations of <em>Pym</em>.</p>
<p>Obviously, Poe wanted to avoid the dismissal of <em>Pym</em> as insubstantial sentimentality, which makes it seem certainly unlikely it was constructed as pure fantasy. Despite the occasional creative counterargument, it does seem that the novel was not intended as a straightforward, realistic narrative. So, that Poe chose none of the accepted methods to compose a text possessed of the best of both worlds is telling—especially as it was Poe himself who made the latter fashionable. Alternative readings are in short supply: if <em>Pym </em>is not straightforward realism nor unmoored fantasy, what is it? Lisa Gitelman proposes that “the novel narrative…asks to be true and false at the same time,” that “one measure of the complexity in Poe’s understanding of literary form is the extent to which <em>Pym </em>suggests a dialogue between voices of fiction and fact” (361). She is correct in her observations. And so it seems most likely that the answer Poe chose for the key question—realistic/fantastic, natural/supernatural—is <em>both</em>, not <em>neither</em>. As the era of magical realism was at least 100 years off, this solution to a contemporary difficulty of storytelling was revolutionary. “What the equivocation of <em>Pym </em>reveals,” John Eakin suggests, “is that Poe in pushing his hero to the limits of experience was pushing himself to the limits of fiction as well” (22).</p>
<p>If one accepts that <em>Arthur Gordon Pym</em> is a generically hybrid work, it follows then to wonder why Poe would feel so compelled to assemble such a complex monstrosity (he was, after all, quite capable of constructing entertaining and more profitable fictions). If, as Zanger concludes, “Poe’s intention…was to create precisely the enigmatic narrative that he left for us,” one is forced to ask <em>why</em>? To what end does Poe invoke magical realism?</p>
<p><strong>III.</strong></p>
<p>Poe’s decision to craft <em>Pym</em> so complexly is completely comprehensible if one takes into account that the text is quite concerned with the inherent “doubleness” of existence. Examples abound—Augustus’ warning note, impossibly scrawled on the non-blank back of a forged letter; the horror of mirrors; the text’s deliberately parallel structure; the black world and the white world adjacent, at the end of the earth. Poe’s oeuvre reveals him, as an author, to be an architect of tales which are fascinating and troubling for their treatment of this inherent dualism, a thing often best left out of sight and mind, for the sake of comfort. Nevertheless, it is unsurprising that his most ambitious endeavors, <em>Pym</em> and <em>Eureka</em>, confront the issue head-on.</p>
<p>In his satirical “How to Write a Blackwood Article,” Ms. Psyche Zenobia is advised to “[p]ut something in about the Supernal Oneness. Don’t say a syllable about the Infernal Twoness” (Poe 217). This is, of course, ironical, as Poe texts are notable for doppelgangers, duplicity, and other doublings. Though many of his texts’ protagonists pursue the grail of Supernal Oneness, it is the inevitable presence of this Infernal Twoness which confounds them, and makes binary readings of <em>Pym</em>, specifically, dunderheaded. Whether <em>Pym</em> is a realist work whose primary narrative voice is unreliable and deluded by long suffering at the hands of the brutally indifferent natural world, or a fantasy, with a hero confronted by concrete supernatural forces, seems a silly question if one undertakes even a cursory survey of Poe’s work, especially <em>Pym</em>, and notes that the bulk of it is “testimony to Poe’s certainty that the natural and supernatural were not always mutually exclusive” (Dameron 37). It is, then, absolutely apropos of his subject matter to read the “self-consciously ambivalent” <em>Pym </em>as a hybrid entity, possessed of a curious structure which allows it to explore reality’s Infernal Twoness (Weiner 49).</p>
<p>Previous critical notice has, of course, been taken of <em>Pym</em>’s doublings. Kennedy perspicaciously notes that “the doubleness of the text mirrors the doubleness of the world through which the narrator makes his way” (131). Pym’s tale is two-faced. To understand its two faces, one must first acknowledge what they are. The novel contains the prenominate dichotomic tension between natural and supernatural, but unless one actually <em>believes</em> in the supernatural—gods, demons, zombies, giants—the discursive conflict between such forces cannot be taken literally. <em>Pym</em> is not really about whether or not a white god sits in the ocean at the south pole.</p>
<p>It is my belief that the natural and supernatural in Poe’s novel are, <em>so far as the characters are concerned</em>, very real. Pym alludes to the solidity of the novel’s supernatural elements when he, momentarily overcome by emotion, says “now I found these fancies creating their own realities, and all imagined horrors crowding upon me in fact” (Poe 165). What is represented for the reader by these surreal elements is not actual conflict between real and fantastic, but between reality as it is <em>sensed</em>, and reality as it is <em>perceived</em>. All things are, in fact, <em>two</em> things: everything is simultaneously objective and subjective. This is the Infernal Twoness.</p>
<p>It is undeniable that the objective world, detected by the five senses, is often drastically different from one’s subjective experience of it. In his extraordinarily thorough exploration of the text, John Barth notes the “sundry contaminations of reality by irreality” in <em>Pym</em>, but is entirely unwilling to chalk them up to literal intrusions of a fantastic or supernatural world into the reader’s familiar, but then by implication incomplete, reality (229). Mark Canada’s “Flight into Fancy: Poe’s Discovery of the Right Brain” proposes an alternate explanation. “These references to the unreal and the surreal,” he states, “plant the idea that the basis for Pym’s story is not material reality but mental reality” (65). What Barth really notices are sundry contaminations of objective reality by the simultaneous subjectivity of it. Canada’s article takes things too far, suggesting that <em>all</em> of <em>Pym</em>’s events unfold only in the mind of Arthur Pym. But his basic premise is that Poe, with <em>Pym</em>, illustrates the incongruities between one’s <em>sensation</em> of reality, and one’s <em>perception </em>of reality. “[W]hile he may not have pinpointed its location in the skull, Poe conceived of [the right brain,] a mental region remote from ordinary consciousness and characterized by nonverbal forms of thought—specifically visual imagery, music, and emotion” (63). Poe’s novel is grounded in realism, a style perfectly suited for description of even the exotic parts of the physical world and documentation of the events which there transpire. Traditional realism, however, is an incomplete realism, as it fails completely to convey the equally significant details of that subjective reality which is, after all, the primary way humans experience the world. Thus, Barth is not out of line to say “I find <em>The Narrative of Arthur Gordon Pym</em> sometimes less credible in its more realistic stretches and more so in its less” (223).</p>
<p>While one may disagree with Canada’s ultimate conclusion, one must admit that the book thrives in the idiom of the right brain: inscrutable, pithy images; a breakdown of spoken/written language; distorted temporal perception; and mention is even made of music— the clatter of a falling knife, compared to the “richest melody,” saves mute Pym in the <em>Grampus</em>’ hold (Poe 34).</p>
<p>Not noted by Canada, is the fact that distorted temporal perception explains one of the book’s most derided inconsistencies: Pym’s suggestion that Augustus mentioned the music of the knife <em>years later</em> when Augustus is dead <em>within a month</em>. “The realm explored in <em>Pym</em> lacks not only ordinary language, but also ordinary time,” argues Canada (69). When Pym finds the watch left for him by Augustus run down, useless in telling ordinary time, he decides to “wind his watch again and hope to keep track of relative time” (69). Canada suggests that “[e]ven this apparent grasp of time is undercut, however, by Pym’s strange remark that Augustus, who he later reports died on August 1, spoke to him ‘years’ later” (69). Canada is again mistaken: Pym’s report does not undercut, it instead exemplifies the idea that he is hopelessly ensconced in perceptual time (as opposed to the “real” time kept by well-wound watches). The time between Pym’s disorienting ordeal in the cargo hold and Augustus’ death on the hulk may be thirty sunrises/sunsets. But that time—spent in hiding, fighting, starvation, thirst, terror, sleeplessness, fatigue, and the emotional turmoil concomitant with cannibalism—would no doubt <em>feel</em> much longer. This relative time is equally important in truthful conveyance of Pym’s experiences. Poe’s “Blackwood gives lucid instructions on how well-told stories are constructed: “Sensations are the great things, after all. Should you ever be drowned or hung, be sure and make a note of your sensations” (215). Thus, subjectively Pym <em>did</em> speak to Augustus years later; however, years later, only a month of objective time had passed.</p>
<p><em>Pym</em>’s bifurcated nature is the result of a story driven by a need to convey a <em>complete</em> reality. So understood, much of it seems less mysterious and more sensible. The doubleness of the world through which Pym makes his way is one born out of psychic disharmony: the irksome cognitive dissonance that results from the fact that the world rarely <em>is</em> exactly as it <em>seems</em> to us, as it is <em>perceived</em>. Gitelman touches on the notion: “Psychic disharmony…is, of course, one of the trademarks of Poe’s characters…Pym’s psychic disharmony mirrors the disunity of the text he narrates” (356). Pym himself is aware of this disharmony and the fact that it will inevitably contaminate his text. In his preamble, he alludes to the difficulties imposed by the doubleness of his experiences. He frets over his ability to craft a text which will adequately convey the <em>complete</em> truth. “I feared I should not be able to write, from mere memory, a statement so minute and connected as to have the <em>appearance</em> of that truth that it would really possess” (Poe 2). This sentiment is well-demonstrated by the parallel adventures of the <em>Ariel</em> and the Tsalalian canoe: one striving for verisimilitude, the other ignoring the verisimilar in favor of truth.</p>
<p>Of those adventures, it could be fairly claimed that the former is written in the language of a pure realist, while the latter is magical realism, which Angel Flores laconically describes as “Romanticism and Realism…bound together in one afflatus” (110). This statement is not only true of magically real fiction, but of the human experience in general. What is romanticism besides making important the sentimental, making important perception? Human existence is the afflatus which binds together realism and romanticism, the left and right brain, the natural and the seemingly supernatural, sense and perception. Truly complete realism must be demonstrative of the fact that how things are and how they feel are often equally important.</p>
<p>Interestingly then, the problem in the case of <em>Pym</em> is not that its primary narrator is unreliable (often suggested), but that he is <em>too </em>reliable—he presents all facts, objective and subjective, even when they outright contradict each other. “In <em>Pym</em>,” Gitelman explains, “the character of the narrator is all that stands between the reader and ‘the facts,’ yet the narrator proves an ultimate frustration” (360). In many cases, however, sensory facts and perceptual facts differ wildly; magical realism is a tool perfectly suited to conveying the difficult truth of this Infernal Twoness. As in real life, it is sometimes difficult to distinguish which elements of a given experience are <em>sensed</em> (objectively real), and which are <em>perceived </em>(subjectively real). More importantly, magical realism challenges the commonly held proposition that the former is the more important, the more true. I believe that this is a truth <em>Pym</em> works desperately to convey.</p>
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<p><strong>IV.</strong></p>
<p>Those who claim to be in the know have proposed dozens of potential <em>sine quibus non</em> of magical realism. Many of these definitions are outright contradictory, agreeing only that a magically real text seems realistic, excepting the inclusion of some surreal elements. Hypotheses vary, many focusing on geographic determinism (insisting such fiction can emerge only from Latin America or other postcolonial societies), others suggesting that magical realism must subvert a dominant paradigm’s ideology. Wendy Faris, in her essay “Scheherazade’s Children,” goes so far as to propose a fourteen criterion list of <em>sine quibus non</em>. Though treatises on the topic tend to be labyrinthine and complex, I believe magical realism can be quite simply defined.</p>
<p>Spoken/written language lends itself best to describing the left-brained, linear sensation of reality. Communicating the dimensions and appearance of a skyscraper is an act for which it is perfectly suited. Communicating the right-brained, emotional reaction of awe in the face of sublimity inspired by such a structure is less simply effected. The right-brain, it is commonly accepted, has no comprehension of traditional spoken/written language or linear time and, thus, it is exceedingly difficult to communicate its experience of existence. Nevertheless, that experience of existence is equally important and as real as the left-brain’s more communicable one—more immediate and visceral, it often seems more important. From the get-go, literature is working with one hand tied behind its back: it is not a series of immediate images, like a silent film; it is a written medium. Magical realism allows a writer to speak to the right-brain, to portray perceived, subjective reality, despite its handicapping reliance on words.</p>
<p>Though unabashedly realist fiction like Flaubert, George Eliot, or Ayn Rand may be perfectly reflective of our left-brain’s sensation of the world, magical realism accepts as equally relevant the right-brain’s perception<em> </em>of the world and, understanding its inherently difficult-to-communicate nature, it incarnates that intangible experience by cutting out the middlemen of metaphors: in a realist text, a character may fall from a great height and <em>feel as if she were falling for an eternity</em>; in a work of magical realism, that character may, in fact, continue to fall for all eternity. As Scott Simpkins suggests, “[r]eality is too subtle for realism to catch” (153). The laundry day ascension to heaven of Remedios the Beauty in <em>One Hundred Years of Solitude </em>is one of the most famous scenes in all magical realism. Gabriel García Márquez explains that Remedios “was modeled on a nymphomaniac who did not ascend to paradise on the wings of sheets being laundered but disappeared from her family more conventionally” (Columbus 400). The objective reality of the matter is probably closer to this: Remedios died quickly from a sexually transmitted disease while still young and beautiful. But to those close to her—who, in the novel, watch her ascension into the heavens—it may <em>feel</em> more like their loved one, swaddled in bed linens, has been snatched up by the afterworld before time could ravage her unbelievable beauty. There is a knee-jerk answer to which version of events is more “real.” But if one calmly considers his or her own memories, there will inevitably be found cases in which clearly remembered facts are, in reality, not eidetic recollections, but sometimes drastically altered versions of sensory data colored by one’s perception. If a traumatic event—a rape, perhaps—feels as if it took an hour, but objectively occurred in less than two minutes, which reality matters more? Magical realism asks this question.</p>
<p>The necessary and sufficient condition for a text to be considered magically real is that, while written in a realistic idiom, the work is a more <em>complete</em> mimesis: it levels the playing field between sensation and perception, incarnating and making equally primary that intangible but very real part of human experience so often ignored outright or dealt with clumsily by the metaphors and sometimes inadequate descriptions of traditionally realistic texts; magical realism is capable of confronting and conveying the Infernal Twoness. Luis Leal describes the magical realist as one who “cling[s] to reality…to prevent their myth from flying off, as in fairy tales, to supernatural realms” (120). Pym (unlike <em>Eureka</em>) does not “fly off,” but remains intriguing and perplexing, with one foot in both worlds.</p>
<p><strong>V.</strong></p>
<p><em>The Narrative of Arthur Gordon Pym</em> makes plain a view that the ordinary language of realism is incapable of conveying perceived reality. It is commonly accepted that spoken/written language is a complete mystery to the right brain, and Poe’s <em>Eureka</em> makes equally plain both a belief that the truth of experience is essentially ineffable, and that the most important experience for men and women to understand is death. Cynthia Miecznikowski agrees that “both works seem to come to the same end: a realization of or confrontation with the limits of language, its inability to fully articulate our thoughts or to fully explain our experiences” (55). Confined by traditional realism, Poe was aware that he would be incapable of conveying complete truth—including the equally important subjective reality—about any experience.</p>
<p>Magical realism, however, with its <em>modus operandi</em> of “skipping the metaphor” and directly incarnating perceptions provides a way of communicating more directly with the right brain. Pym demonstrates an awareness of the power of images, especially in situations where “[m]ere words fail to deliver the writer to his end (or the reader to the ending)” (59). Canada agrees, noting that <em>Pym </em>specifically “is littered with references to the impotence of words” (68).</p>
<p>Beginning, significantly, after the rather limp escapade of the <em>Ariel</em>, Pym’s narrative develops a lamentatious refrain, bemoaning again and again the inadequacy of descriptive words. Referencing the sudden and inexplicable arrival of Tiger, Pym writes, “Had a thousand lives hung upon the movement of a limb or the utterance of a syllable, I could neither have stirred nor spoken” (Poe 21). In contemplation of his beloved canine companion’s possible madness, he ineffectually describes the situation by not describing it, as a “harrowing and yet indefinable horror” (30). When he first hears Augustus’ voice calling out to him, he explains that “so intense was the emotion excited within me by the sound, that I endeavored in vain to reply. My powers of speech totally failed…[h]ad a thousand worlds depended upon a syllable, I could not have spoken it” (33). Each of these moments is a purposively weak encapsulation of what was, in the world of the text, an extremely evocative experience, and it becomes clear through these constant linguistic lamentations that such experiences cannot be done any justice by the description of traditional realism.</p>
<p>Poe has more faith in images. In a sequence which comes off like a demonstration of the power and relevance of perceived reality and, thus, like a primer on the magically real tactic that will be employed throughout the rest of the story. Augustus, Pym, and Peters retake <em>The Grampus</em> by incarnating what should be and is usually invisible and intangible: the ghost of Rodgers. Kennedy marks the sequence as possessed of “a kind of oneiric validity” (130). This oneiric affect is hinted at when the number of mutineers multiplies inexplicably between paragraphs. “Peters informs Augustus of the size of the two warring factions…[i]n the next two paragraphs, Pym explains that Jones and the cook defect…while Augustus and Pym pledge to support Peters. Though logically we expect the new odds to be three against seven, Pym reports that [they were then three against <em>nine</em>]” (130). This “proliferation of voices” can certainly be read as a magically real flourish—as above, these disagreeing observations may be simultaneously true: the odds <em>did</em>, then, perceptually become three against nine, in the eyes of the desperate and virtually hopeless company hoping to retake the ship; it just happens that, speaking objectively, the nine men are really seven.</p>
<p>Pym’s company develops a scheme to retake the ship which depends heavily on the potency and immediacy of what, to the mutineers, would seem to be a magical image. Horrified by the sight of a possibly poisoned comrade, the mutineers are already on edge. Pym is dressed and made-up to resemble the grotesque corpse, and this surreal image is so effective that, upon catching his own reflection—upon seeing reality as it will be perceived, not as it <em>is</em>, Pym himself nearly collapses. “Peters then arranged my face, first rubbing it well over with white chalk, and afterward splotching it with blood, which he took from a cut in his finger” (Poe 63). Peters whips the mutineers into a state of further paranoia with cautionary words. It is not words, though, but the entrance of Pym dressed as the dead and disfigured Rogers—which is responsible for the scheme’s success. The image is so affecting that the treasonous leader “without uttering a syllable”—wordlessly—“fell back, stone dead, upon the cabin floor” (67). With this sequence Poe, in an idiom all his own, rather heavy-handedly reminds his readers of the clichéd, yet undeniably true, sentiment that a picture is worth a thousand words. He also foreshadows how “Pym” will continue the narrative once Poe’s portion is over.</p>
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<p><strong>VI.</strong></p>
<p><em>The Narrative of Arthur Gordon Pym </em>begins with the rather limply told tale of the <em>Ariel</em>—this first story told in a completely realistic idiom—and only gradually does the novel become a work of magical realism, as it draws closer to the pole. Miecznikowski agrees, saying, “Poe’s rhetoric…moves toward distancing both author and reader from the ordinary world as they (reader, writer, and text) ‘converge’ on an idea that the author cannot put into words but that he is nevertheless driven (to attempt) to disclose” (61). That idea, I believe, is the idea that the <em>Ariel</em>’s story <em>deliberately</em> fails to communicate. Following the retaking of the brig, which demonstrates the relative reality and effect of perception (it can kill), the survivors, adrift, experience the text’s first full-fledged instantiation of the magically real: the vision of the hideous, corpse-laden Dutch schooner.</p>
<p>It is, significantly, with this incident that Poe’s bemoaning of the inefficacy of words as descriptors ceases completely. Of the storm that wrecks the <em>Grampus</em>, another pseudo-description is offered. “The night was as dark as it could possibly be, and the horrible shrieking din and confusion which surrounded us it is useless to attempt describing” (Poe 72). The next morning, after the survivors are able to unlash each other from the masts, the reality of their situation becomes apparent: they are stranded without water, without food, without much hope of rescue, amidst a sea into which they could easily slip and drown. Common knowledge would have allowed them to understand that one can live about three minutes without air, three days without water, and three weeks without food. Surely, the marooned men begin to ponder what will become of them.</p>
<p>Poe could continue to convey these morose, upsetting musings in a traditionally realistic style by explaining that the survivors were “terrified beyond expression” or that “words could not express how hopeless we were, how certain we were that, if our craft were ever discovered, it would be found to be nothing more than a ghost ship littered with our corpses.” This, while true, is a mere left-brained description of facts. But to men virtually certain that this was their fate, their perception of reality would feel much more immediate than the emotion those words convey. A faithful rendition of their tale would have to effectively account for not only how things <em>were</em>, but how they <em>felt</em>.</p>
<p>It is to be remembered that Pym has told the reader that Poe, allegedly, completed as ghostwriter a portion of this manuscript and that, once into it, he—Pym—took over the narration. He says in the preface that “it will be unnecessary to point out where his portion ends and my own commences; the differences in point of style will be readily perceived” (3). This is commonly accepted as a sly joke; that is to say, if there is any element of <em>Pym</em> upon which critics have reached a consensus, it is that there <em>is</em> no difference in point of style. This is not necessarily true. When Pym sees the schooner, miles in the distance, he stands, “stretching out [his] arms in the direction of this vessel,” of course so full of ineffable emotion that he is “unable to articulate a syllable” (79). When the vessel comes close, but before the men can comprehend its reality, “there wafted over the ocean a stench, such as the whole world has no name for—no conception of—hellish—utterly suffocating—insufferable, inconceivable” (81). More of the same: the situation is <em>so</em> interesting that it is indescribable. Poe may as well, at this point, just be repeating the phrase, “You had to be there.”<a href="#ftn1">[1]</a></p>
<p>But with the arrival of the schooner, the narrative supplants any attempted and inevitably futile written description of Pym’s internal experience with a vivid oneiric image comprehensible to the right brain. The men are not just dwelling on their own likely fates, they are physically confronted by them. In a situation so extreme as theirs, their perception of the situation is indubitably as important and “real” as whatever “facts” there are which might be collected with the senses. More real at such a moment than the sight of the endless sea, would be the vision of oneself as carrion, upon which a “there sat a huge sea-gull busily gorging itself with the horrible flesh, its bill and talons deep buried, and its white plumage spattered all over with blood” (82). Pym’s vision of a face from which “the eyes were gone, and the whole flesh around the mouth, leaving the teeth utterly naked” would reflect, in its putrefied and lipless “smile which had cheered us on in hope,” the imprudence of such hope (82). With the image of the Dutch ship and its passengers, Pym’s narrative ceases to seem like a third-hand account. The novel ceases to feel like a poor relation of objective reality, often lacking in insight, and becomes laden with oneiric images of subjective reality—a more immediate and effective method of communicating the truth of the situation. It is with the schooner that the narrative becomes “a world which in itself is utterly desacralized, whose horrors, as [Poe] asserts in his <em>Marginalia</em>, are not mere projections of mind but ‘thoroughly substantial.’ And if one thing is clear…it is that this terrifying realm of physical nature can be confronted only by man’s frail, limited powers unaided by any <em>supernatural</em> assistance” (Hussey 24).</p>
<p>It is at this point I believe that Pym’s portion of the narrative begins. With the schooner, a tale is not related by a third party—the intratextual Poe—to the reader. The reader is confronted and provoked by the intangible, the magical incarnate; this permits the communication of a more complete realism in this scene which, for the characters, is “more intensely productive of emotion, as far more replete with the extremes first of delight and then of horror, than even any [later events]” (Poe 79). Instead of explaining that the situation is really inexplicable—essentially, that “you had to be there”—the oneiric image of the schooner allows the reader access to the subjective reality of the experience. The ship is “thoroughly substantial” within the text, but that does not mean it is not artifice employed by the narrator—at this point, no longer Poe, but Pym. So, in fact it is <em>Pym</em> who is the magical realist. Magical realism is his solution to his earlier question about how to compose a tale with the <em>appearance</em> of truth that it actually has.</p>
<p>After the passing of this ship, there is just a single statement about the unfortunate reality of linguistic fallibility. Of the cannibalization of Richard Parker, Pym says, “[s]uch things may be imagined, but words have no power to impress the mind with the exquisite horror of their reality” (94). As such, the next time the situation becomes dire, and the men resort to cannibalism, the words which would describe it are supplanted by surreality, and Augustus—whom I believe to be, objectively, eaten by Pym and Peters—is subjectively devoured instead by a school of sharks.</p>
<p>Though these sharks are nowhere near as spectacular as the image of the Dutch schooner, their behavior gives one pause. A number of critics have questioned their unlikely chase of the <em>Grampus</em>, and Carringer is positively outraged by both that and the images of Augustus’ putrefied body falling to bits and being fed to the frenzied pursuers. He calls the sequence not “Poe’s genuine rhetoric of terror,” but “that annoying hyperbolic style he frequently uses as a substitute” (510). The ordeal is hyperbolic for a reason: it is the incarnation of subjective reality.</p>
<p>The sharks first appear after the meat of Parker has run out, and it becomes clear that the survivors will, before long, be in dire straits. Other comestibles are soon exhausted (“This evening we ate the last of our olives, and found the water in our jug so putrid that we could not swallow it without the addition of wine. Determined to kill our tortoise…[and it] proved to be much smaller than we had supposed” (101). It would seem that the sailors would again have no choice but to draw lots. The idea <em>must</em> have occurred to Pym and Peters who have been giving the lion’s share of their stores to Augustus, in the slim hope that he be kept alive. This is when the sharks appear. “An excessively hot day, with no wind. An enormous shark kept close by the hulk during the whole of the forenoon” (101).</p>
<p>Instead of repeating the claim to ineffability made of the cannibalization of Parker—“ words have no power to impress the mind with the exquisite horror”—that horror is given corporeal form as bloodthirsty sharks. Long after the other food has been exhausted, Pym notes that “[w]e now saw clearly that Augustus could not be saved; that he was evidently dying” (102). Clearly his best friend, already doomed, should be the one to perish in order that he and Peters survive. It is unclear exactly when or precisely why Augustus expires, only that Pym and Peters “sat motionless by the corpse during the whole day, and never addressed each other except in a whisper. It was not until some time after dark that [they] took courage to get up and throw the body overboard….as Peters attempted to lift it, an entire leg came off in his grasp” (102). This speedy and queer putrefaction makes the situation yet more surreal.</p>
<p>If Parker had died that day, there is no logical reason that his leg would simply tear off due to decomposition; his blackened arm, possibly, but not his leg. The image, instead, calls to mind the plucking of a drumstick from a large bird. Immediately after Peters tears off a portion of Augustus, the suddenly somehow radiant body is ostensibly thrown into the sea where “the glare of phosphoric light with which it was surrounded plainly discovered to [Pym and Peters] seven or eight large sharks, the clashing of whose horrible teeth, as their prey was torn to pieces among them, might have been heard at the distance of a mile” (102). Objectively, Pym and Peters are eating Pym’s best friend. Subjectively, bloodthirsty sharks—dumb animals only doing what they must to survive—tear Augustus to pieces.</p>
<p>Equally queer is the behavior of the sharks <em>after</em> the death of Augustus. With no hope of rescue in sight, all that remains is for Pym and Peters to turn on each other. Thus, the sharks multiply and refuse to abandon the brig. “During the whole day…the hulk was now entirely besieged on all sides with sharks—no doubt the identical monsters who had devoured our poor companion on the evening before, and who were in momentary expectation of another similar feast” (103). The identical monsters, indeed. The sharks “never left…for a moment” and, during this time, Pym and Peters find they cannot sleep (104). This is unsurprising, as each is no longer certain the other will not soon slaughter and eat him.</p>
<p>Perhaps the most convincing detail that leads one to believe this sequence is the incarnation of subjective reality, not an objective description of events, is the disappearance of the sharks. When the boat capsizes, Peters and Pym suddenly find starvation no longer a concern as “the keel itself, [was]<em> thickly covered with large barnacles, which proved to be excellent and highly nutritious food</em>…which we could not have exhausted, using it moderately, in a month” (105). The supplied, the sharks mysteriously vanish. “Seeing no trace of sharks among the seaweed, we also ventured to bathe, and remained in the water for four or five hours, during which we experienced a very sensible diminution of our thirst” (106). Shortly thereafter, the survivors are rescued.</p>
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<p><strong>VIII.</strong></p>
<p><strong> </strong>Though the mutual primacy of both poles of such dichotomic pairs as real/fantastic, natural/supernatural, and sense/perception is, as emphasized later in Poe’s career, perhaps the “point” of <em>Pym­</em>—a text that could not conceivably be more representative of that Infernal Twoness—in the end, the narrative employs the artifice of magical realism to explore a recurrent theme of Poe’s fiction. O’Donnell, in his famous “From Earth to Ether” remarks that “Poe’s works are all variations on a single persistent theme” (85). He elaborates, suggesting that Poe plainly defines that theme as a young man “[H]ow characteristic,” he says, “how prophetic, that Poe, early in his career, has Hans Pfaall determine ‘to depart, yet live—to leave the world, yet continue to exist’” (85). For Poe, then, the ultimate goal of existence is to understand death—something that certainly cannot be done while alive. Close by, though, is to understand what it is like to be quite near death. Pym’s portion of the narrative is framed not only by queer editorial notes, but by two smaller adventures—the voyages of the <em>Ariel</em> and the Tsalalian canoe. The former is told through the pen of a realist, and flounders about in descriptions of objective details. The latter strives for the more complete mimesis allowed by magical realism.</p>
<p>Eakin writes that “Pym tastes the zenith and the nadir of sensation…when the two young men, intoxicated with drink and power, embark in a gale late at night; for the intensity of heightened consciousness, that ecstasy which man’s capacity to attain the ultimate reach of experience inspires, and the numbness of insensibility when this ‘mental energy’ gives way” (18). If this is true and, according to the details of the story, it certainly appears to be, then one is forced to wonder why the ordeal of the <em>Ariel</em> does not read as such.  Not once is the reader provoked to feel even the palest imitation of “the zenith and nadir of sensation.” Poe’s language in this introductory tale seems flaccid because it is deliberately weak.</p>
<p>The narrator explains a party has taken place and that Pym and his friend Augustus have retired for the night, drunk. The narrator vaguely approximates the inception of the excursion. “It might have been half an hour from the time of our getting in bed” (Poe 5). After Augustus proposes their mad freak, Pym recalls that “the words were no sooner out of his mouth than I felt a thrill of the greatest excitement and pleasure [and noticed] so glorious a breeze from the southwest. I never was so astonished in my life” (5). Carringer is quite correct when he remarks that “[i]ndeed, the opening of <em>Arthur Gordon Pym</em> sounds like anyone <em>but</em> Poe” (511). Poe’s writing, even ten pages on, is never so vacuous.</p>
<p>Even when the adventure begins to go awry, the language is dry and devoid of metaphor. It merely recounts facts. “I found that something had gone wrong,” Pym says, “and became seriously alarmed” (Poe 6). Both objectively true. Augustus reveals his intoxication and “the tone of these words…filled [Pym] with an indescribable feeling of dread” (6). “It is hardly possible to conceive the extremity of my terror,” he says (7). Pym loses consciousness just after he hears “a loud and long scream or yell, as if from the throats of a thousand demons, [that] seemed to pervade the whole atmosphere around and above the boat” (8). This metaphor sticks out in the otherwise drab narration, but is the best the opening chapter has to offer. Pym falls into the water and must be “resuscitated from a state bordering very nearly upon death,” about which the prose says almost nothing (12).</p>
<p>Once rescued by the <em>Penguin </em>Augustus recounts his near-death experience. “Upon his first attaining any degree of consciousness, he found himself beneath the [water], whirling round and round with inconceivable rapidity…in the greatest degree still clouded and confused…[a] feeling of vague terror and despair had taken entire possession of his faculties” (11). Knowing what within even a few pages Poe is capable of accomplishing with his prose using this very same narrator, this adventure—responsible for the excitation of Pym which prompts in him an obsession with the dangerous sea, and incites him to do something so radical as run away from home and stow away aboard the <em>Grampus</em>—comes off as exceptionally tame. By the end of the narrative, it would be unsurprising if readers had forgotten this incident completely. This is because Poe, in this opening, has not heeded his own advice: “Sensations are the great things, after all. Should you ever be drowned or hung, be sure and make a note of your sensations” (215). The tale of the <em>Ariel </em>lays bare the shortcomings of realism. The voyage of the Tsalalian canoe is a proper retelling of the <em>Ariel</em> adventure in the more suitable idiom of magical realism.</p>
<p>O’Donnell’s aforementioned article cites an extensive list of reflections between the events before and after the near-equatorial appearance of the “<em>Jane Guy</em> at the end of the central chapter, each event in the first half paralleling an event in the second half” (89). He posits a theory about the white giant at text’s end: “At the beginning, the characters set sail in a small boat; there is a wreck from which they are rescued,” and after a series of parallel events, the characters “sail in a small boat toward the pole; and—I assume Poe wants me to see—there is a wreck from which they are rescued, thus allowing Pym to get home” (89).</p>
<p>The similarities between the ventures give one pause. Recounting his escapade on the <em>Ariel</em>, Pym says only this of his proximity to death: “I was so utterly benumbed, too, in every limb, as to be nearly unconscious of sensation” (7). This sentence is yet another dry, objective recounting of what, subjectively, must have been a virtually apocalyptic episode. To be so close to death must have felt to Pym, perhaps, as if his world was about to disappear—to go blank. Which, as he travels toward the end of the earth (subjectively synonymous with the end of one’s life) is, in the idiom of magical realism, what actually happens.</p>
<p>The world surrounding the canoe has gradually albified as Pym and Peters sail helplessly southward. Pym explains that they have entered “a region of novelty and wonder,” the features of which are oneiric images which speak directly to the right brain. Whiteness has, throughout the novel, been closely associated with death<a href="#ftn2">[2]</a>—and not capriciously, as whiteness is the hue of blankness, of cessation. It is, as Ricardou famously suggested, the color of the blank pages at the end of a story—the nothingness that comes after its end. This surreality delivers to the reader a much greater sense of dread, confusion, and trepidation than the simple recitation of facts in Pym’s recounting of the <em>Ariel</em> adventure. Echoing his sentiments before his earlier brush with death, Pym says, “I felt a <em>numbness</em> of body and mind—a dreaminess of sensation,” of the moments before his embrace by the white giant beyond the veil (173).  Poe, the realist, has told Pym’s near-death story and failed to communicate its truth; Pym, in this closing episode, works to capture a more complete mimesis.</p>
<p>Eventually, the entire world around Pym is blank. “A high range of light gray vapor appeared constantly in the southern horizon, flaring up occasionally in lofty streaks…having all the wild variations of the Aurora Borealis…and there was a perceptible alteration in [the ocean’s] color…being no longer transparent, but of a milky consistency and hue” (172-3). He is stymied by “[a] fine white powder, resembling ashes” that “fell over the canoe and over a large surface of the water” (173). And, as if those details were not enough to indicate both his proximity to death and how closely this experience echoes the wreck of the <em>Ariel</em>, the screams from the throats of a thousand demons are replaced by “[m]any gigantic and pallidly white birds [flying] continuously now from beyond the veil, and their scream was the eternal ‘<em>Tekeli-li!</em>’” Death. Famously, Pym’s portion of the narrative concludes with an especially oneiric vision of “a chasm [which] threw itself open to receive us. But there arose in our pathway a shrouded human figure, very far larger in its proportions than any dweller among men” (175). The answer to Zanger’s question—“is the great white figure emerging from the mists real or supernatural?—is <em>both</em>: objectively, no; subjectively, yes. But by this point in the novel, the reader has every reason to believe that both are simultaneously valid answers.</p>
<p>Incidentally, the white giant—the embrace of which ends Pym’s narrative, effectively killing him—and the <em>Penguin</em>—a collision with which ends Pym’s adventure on the <em>Ariel</em>, almost killing him share one other subtle connection: the word “<em>[p]enguin</em>…derives from the Welsh as ‘white head’” (Pierce 63). Poe’s indications seem clear: Pym’s last voyage is a more completely mimetic rewriting of his first.</p>
<p>The parallels between the two escapades are plain and it is self-evident which one better suits the aim of Pym, as he confessed in the preface, to convey a tale possessed of the appearance of truth that it actually has. Nowhere in the tale of the <em>Ariel</em> does the experiential reality of the situation seem accessible; but the tale of the Tsalalian canoe is told in such a way as to literally have the appearance of the situation’s truth: the complete truth of both situations is that Pym is coming close to death and, for him, the world is about to end—about to disappear. And in the latter adventure, which accounts for the Infernal Twoness, that is, in fact, precisely the way things appear.</p>
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<p>Durham: Duke University Press, 1992. 217-230.</p>
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<p>Faculty Press, 1983. 124-35.</p>
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<p>O’Donnell, Charles. “From Earth to Ether: Poe’s Flight into Space.” <em>PMLA</em> 77.1 (1962): 85-91.</p>
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<p><a title="" name="ftn1" href="#_ftnref"></a>[1] Similarly, underscoring the failure of realistic description to convey truth is arguably the entire point of the Auroras episode. Imagine the captain who discovered the islands; he provides for his peers the most explicit instructions to reach them. Nevertheless, these instructions lead most sailors to empty ocean. Imagine the captain who discovered the islands as a man regaling a group with an hilarious anecdote, only to find no one laughing at its end. All he can do is offer a weak, “I guess you had to be there.”</p>
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<p><a title="" name="ftn2" href="#_ftnref"></a>[2] Augustus’ face: “paler than any marble” (6); Augustus’ face: “paler than death” (8); “Block (who turned very pale)” (9);  Pym’s uncle: “turned first pale” (16); Tiger’s “white and ghastly fangs” (21); “the white slip of paper” which warns of blood and death (28); “white fangs” (32); “the captain pale as death” (Poe 39); Rodgers’ “face was shrunken, shriveled, and of a chalky whiteness” (63); “Augustus…had become deadly pale (79); the survivors: “paler than marble” (81); “a white squall” (109); “clouds to the southward were observed to be of a snowy whiteness” (Poe 121); “Captain Guy now held up a white handkerchief on the blade of an oar, when the strangers made a full stop” (131); “the white race—from whose complexion, indeed, they seemed to recoil” (132); path in the labyrinth that speaks of the region to the south: “this was choked up in the same manner with brambles and a quantity of the white arrow-head flints” (162).</p>
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<p><em><strong>Amoskeag</strong></em><strong>:</strong> Your work, “[sic],” was featured in the 2011 Spring edition of <em>Amoskeag</em>. Tell us a little about the story behind this piece. How did it come about?</p>
<p><strong>James Black:</strong><strong> </strong>I was discussing with a friend the importance of names. His stepfather’s birth certificate provided only “Baby Boy” as his first name, and we were laughing over some official mail that had arrived for him from the state Health &amp; Records department, addressed to “Baby Boy.” I suggested that it would be unfortunate, annoying, or potentially hilarious to discover that one’s own birth certificate were somehow irregular. I asked my friend if he’d seen his; he asked if I’d seen mine. Oddly, neither of us had. While I couldn’t find mine, my friend <em>did</em> find his and, to his chagrin, he <em>had</em> discovered an irregularity: for the entirety of his life, he’d been misspelling his middle name “Allan” as “Allen.” While this wasn’t such a big deal, I was left pondering the possibility of one’s whole life being thrown into upheaval by some similar, but more grievous, discovery. “[sic]” grew from that seed.</p>
<p><em><strong>Amoskeag</strong></em><strong>:</strong> How and why did it take this final form?  What were the changes and drafts it went through?</p>
<p><strong>James Black:</strong><strong> </strong>The actual story itself is the result of my many, many problems with America’s seriously flawed health care system—a system which contributed in a number of significant ways to the simultaneously too-speedy and too-slow death of my mother from metastatic colon cancer. Many countries have heroin clinics for terminally ill cancer patients; after a while, morphine doesn’t cut it when it comes to the pain, and heroin makes things much easier. The US has, for years, aggressively refused to establish such institutions. This is, of course, a tragedy and, as a result, I got to watch someone I loved die in abject agony.</p>
<p>A few years later, my home city of Rochester embarked on a series of ill-advised ventures to build a ferry to Toronto, and watching each iteration of the project fail was morbidly fascinating. I needed a reason for my protagonist to suddenly require a birth certificate he hadn’t previously seen and a trip across the border to acquire heroin for a cancer patient accomplished that without—to me—feeling contrived.</p>
<p><em><strong>Amoskeag</strong></em><strong>:</strong> Why do you write?  What made you want to pursue writing professionally?</p>
<p><strong>James Black:</strong><strong> </strong>The second part of this question is easier to answer than the first. I write professionally because it’s the one thing I’ve found that makes me feel even remotely contented, happy, etcetera. Who could ask more from a job? Most of my life has been spent doing work that I find degrading and disappointing. Someone once said something like “writing is something that is for a writer more difficult than it is for anyone else.” I find that to be true. But writing is also, for me, the one thing worth the effort.</p>
<p>Why it’s worth the effort has to do with interiority. Douglas Coupland’s <em>Microserfs</em> defined interiority as, more or less, the feeling of “getting” someone or being “gotten.” Feeling like someone is inside your head—in a good way. Vonnegut said loneliness is the worst disease by which humanity has been stricken. I’m not sure it’s a disease with a cure. But reading something well-written makes a person forget that fact for the length of the piece. A good book is easier to find than a “soulmate,” and less risky than a fistful of Xanax.</p>
<p><em><strong>Amoskeag</strong></em><strong>:</strong> What tips and suggestions would you give to aspiring writers?</p>
<p><strong>James Black:</strong><strong> </strong>Learn to cope with perpetual failure. There are months where I receive a letter a day telling me someone clever enough to edit a literary journal thinks I’m not good enough. If that bothers you, you’re going to have a serious problem. I’ve been rejected hundreds of times in eight years of submissions. But I’ve also been accepted many places, and there’s nothing like the feeling of knowing that soon people you will never meet will be reading your work and, hopefully, feeling that interiority—my favorite stories seem to “get” me, to understand how existence feels to me, and when people read my own work, I hope that at least a few in the audience will feel “gotten.”</p>
<p>Other than that, the two pithiest pieces of advice I’ve got are simple. 1) Write stories you would want to read. 2) Writer’s block is a myth invented to excuse laziness—you can always write; your product may suck, but you <em>can</em> write. With enough editorial attention, you can turn terrible sentences into stalwart and worthwhile ones. Sometimes you’ll just build slowly. Writer’s block is as silly and romantic a notion as the idea that artists must be penniless and depressed.</p>
<p><em><strong>Amoskeag</strong></em><strong>:</strong> What are you currently working on?</p>
<p><strong>James Black:</strong><strong> </strong>At the moment, I’m three stories shy of releasing a second collection (my first is self-published and can be found on my website, <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/">http://sesquipedalism.com</a>). And the piece I’m currently working on is one which, as I mentioned above, seems to require slow building. In this piece, there’s a labyrinth that won’t quit growing, a computer-illiterate professor learning how to navigate Facebook so he can check in on a student’s welfare, cats chatting about the color of their new collars, and an airplane full of people who are all absolutely sure that they’re the center of the world. So, we’ll see how that comes together in the end.</p>
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		<title>Perspective on Time</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 07 Feb 2012 10:20:57 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p>Perspective on Time</p> <p> </p> <p>I</p> <p>When I was nine,</p> <p>I spent my time</p> <p>at school or on the bus,</p> <p>keeping quiet. A soldier spy,</p> <p>Jedi Knight, superhero—</p> <p>someone struggling</p> <p>to maintain a meek secret</p> <p>identity. This narration,</p> <p>a running monologue</p> <p>rewrote everything,</p> <p>a chrome remolding of</p> <p>every tarnished event,</p> <p>until some khaki-slacked</p> <p>teacher called my <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/perspective-on-time/">Perspective on Time</a></span>]]></description>
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<p><strong> </strong></p>
<p><strong>I</strong></p>
<p>When I was nine,</p>
<p>I spent my time</p>
<p>at school or on the bus,</p>
<p>keeping quiet. A soldier spy,</p>
<p>Jedi Knight, superhero—</p>
<p>someone struggling</p>
<p>to maintain a meek secret</p>
<p>identity. This narration,</p>
<p>a running monologue</p>
<p>rewrote everything,</p>
<p>a chrome remolding of</p>
<p>every tarnished event,</p>
<p>until some khaki-slacked</p>
<p>teacher called my alter-</p>
<p>ego’s name. And I was</p>
<p>only me again.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>II</strong></p>
<p>If I swallowed enough</p>
<p>of the Ipecac, I just might</p>
<p>throw up that apple</p>
<p>seed. I would leave it</p>
<p>to rot, forgotten, in</p>
<p>a rust-colored, reeking puddle,</p>
<p>in the greenest city park,</p>
<p>underneath an ash tree. I</p>
<p>would climb that tree.</p>
<p>And if I never came</p>
<p>down, I could make it</p>
<p>always the tail end of</p>
<p>teenage summer: scratched</p>
<p>records, baseball, broken</p>
<p>curfew, cigarettes, and sex</p>
<p>forever.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>III</strong></p>
<p>Mathematic gravity</p>
<p>draws everything</p>
<p>down, even hope.</p>
<p>And people die</p>
<p>or don’t (whichever</p>
<p>is worse), hearts</p>
<p>are broken in</p>
<p>major metropoles</p>
<p>all over the globe,</p>
<p>every single second</p>
<p>of every single day. I</p>
<p>should relax: my sorrows</p>
<p>soon will sublimate, become</p>
<p>the littlest disappointments</p>
<p>lost in the confusion;</p>
<p>insignificant statistics.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong>IV.</strong></p>
<p>Your own voice</p>
<p>will sound alien</p>
<p>to you. Your back</p>
<p>will ache. Your knees.</p>
<p>You will have to</p>
<p>shave your head.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>Yesterday is a gift.</p>
<p>Today is a trial.</p>
<p>Tomorrow is a pox.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p>(2002)</p>
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		<pubDate>Mon, 16 Jan 2012 13:02:58 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p>I know, I know: I&#8217;m rather late. Still, I beat the Grammys. But before it becomes as dangerously irrelevant, I present to you the Top 10 Albums of 2011.</p> <p>Last year, I bought 41 new LPs and screened a few others. Virtually every artist on my list of favorites released an LP, yet six of <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/besttenof11/">10 Best Records of 2011</a></span>]]></description>
				<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div id="tweetbutton2208" class="tw_button" style="float:right;margin-left:10px;"><a href="http://twitter.com/share?url=http%3A%2F%2Fsesquipedalism.com%2Fbesttenof11%2F&amp;via=Sesquipedalism&amp;text=10%20Best%20Records%20of%202011&amp;related=&amp;lang=en&amp;count=vertical&amp;counturl=http%3A%2F%2Fsesquipedalism.com%2Fbesttenof11%2F" class="twitter-share-button"  style="width:55px;height:22px;background:transparent url('http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/plugins/wp-tweet-button/tweetn.png') no-repeat  0 0;text-align:left;text-indent:-9999px;display:block;">Tweet</a></div><p>I know, I know: I&#8217;m rather late. Still, I beat the Grammys. But before it becomes as dangerously irrelevant, I present to you the Top 10 Albums of 2011.</p>
<p>Last year, I bought 41 new LPs and screened a few others. Virtually every artist on my list of favorites released an LP, yet six of this year&#8217;s ten best are from acts I&#8217;d never heard of back on January first—a simultaneously exciting and saddening fact.  This is because, by and large, it was the Year of &#8220;Meh.&#8221;  In virtually every case, albums released by past favorites were &#8220;alright.&#8221; There were a lot of 3.5/5-star records which, <em>ceteris paribus</em>, isn&#8217;t a bad haul. Before briefly discussing those, I&#8217;d like to laud copiously the few artists who in no way disappointed me.</p>
<p>Applause to Trent Reznor and Atticus Ross for their incredible and brilliantly effective score for <em>Girl with the Dragon Tattoo</em>, a record I disqualified from competition because, since it&#8217;s basically a gapless and queerly disquieting three-hour suite, it&#8217;s just too different a beast to be considered for such a list. And accolades also go to St. Vincent, whose spectacular <em>Strange Mercy</em> just missed making the list because record #10 just happened to more or less subvert my very expectations of &#8220;pop music.&#8221; But as for the rest of those &#8220;meh&#8221;-inducing records&#8230;</p>
<p>The Decemberists&#8217; <em>The King Is Dead</em> wasn&#8217;t really a disappointment; in fact, it is an excellent record inspired by American folk. It&#8217;s still a bit of a let down, however. I know good artists evolve or die, but I dearly miss the Brit folk that used to fuel Meloy &amp; Co. And since they did it so well, the mere existence of albums like <em>Picaresque </em>and <em>Castaways &amp; Cutouts&amp;</em> will always loom like a thundercloud over anything new they release.</p>
<p>The final Bright Eyes album was not as bad as it initially seemed. It was, in fact, better than <em>Cassadaga</em>. But that, unfortunately, is like saying &#8220;My migraine today is better than it was yesterday.&#8221; Iron &amp; Wine followed up the 5-star, Desert Island Scenario-Worthy LP <em>The Shepherd&#8217;s Dog </em>by choosing not to try and follow its act. <em>Kiss Each Other Clean </em>is something Iron &amp; Wine&#8217;s never done before  and, though <em>not</em> trying to follow his own sublime act was a smart move by Sam Beam, <em>Kiss </em>as a whole is merely &#8220;okay.&#8221; The great bits (first and last songs especially) are stupendous. The not great bits, &#8220;Big Burned Hand,&#8221; for instance, are lower nadirs than anything he&#8217;s previously put out.</p>
<p>Tune-Yards&#8217; second record, while interesting and still idiosyncratic, really lacks the charm of its crudely assembled predecessor. Death Cab for Cutie truly followed through on their promise to produce something totally different—a promise almost all bands make at some point in their career, usually immediately before releasing something that sounds exactly like the rest of their oeuvre. <em>Codes &amp; Keys</em> is very much Death Cab, but still quite different. That&#8217;s a good thing. But in the end, it&#8217;s no better or worse than <em>Narrow Stairs—</em>their least inspired record to date. Hell, even Atlas Sound—solo project of one of my favorite musicians and core member of my favorite band, Deerhunter—released what was just a &#8220;pretty good&#8221; LP. This is unfortunate, since his last record, 2009&#8242;s <em>Logos</em>, was impeccable, unflawed. There&#8217;s been a fork in Atlas Sound&#8217;s path for some time now: Should Cox turn his project into something friendlier to his more accessible, traditional folk tendencies, or continue to indulge in his warbling and curious sonic eccentricities (<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wLXwmQ5ZjUY" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=swf;width=640;height=385;" target="_blank">&#8220;Washington School&#8221;</a>)? <em>Parallax</em> is a lovely record. But Cox took the road I&#8217;d've preferred he not take. And The Pains of Being Pure at Heart released a wonderful record, jam-packed with tracks that embody the very essence of everything I love about the band. They sounded familiar, natural the first time I heard them. Unfortunately, I was, for the most part, sick of what became too-damned-familiar songs about three weeks later. Regardless, I ended up with a stack of pretty decent records on which there are to be found some singular standout tracks—exciting, saddening, intriguing, fun stuff.</p>
<p>I also ended up with some clunkers. Virtually everything featuring prominent use of the unironic saxophone became grating by May, when it became plain that unironic saxophone was very much in vogue (though <em>Kaputt</em> is another pretty alright album, I&#8217;m looking at you, Destroyer). Let us not discuss Saul Williams&#8217; <em>Volcanic Sunlight—</em>an LP which, like some of the above-discussed, certainly suffers from following a flawless record, but that also suffers from a major case of Now You Sound Generic syndrome. Also let us not discuss <em>Bon Iver</em>. At least not past me saying that 1) the record that will likely win the Grammy for Best LP was the most disappointing record I bought this year, and 2) Justin Vernon&#8217;s project has now joined The National and Arcade Fire as Bands Whom I Will Never Again Support Financially—all three acts duped me into purchasing three mediocre records and they are now, as they say in baseball, fucking <em>out</em>.</p>
<p>Now. On to the standouts.</p>
<p>&nbsp;</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images5.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="images5"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2213" title="images5" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images5-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>10. James Blake—<em>James Blake</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong><strong><em></em></strong>Perhaps it&#8217;s because I stay miles away from anything that&#8217;s been described using the word &#8220;dubstep&#8221;—even if the only instantiation of that word is in the phrase &#8220;<em>post</em>-dubstep&#8221;—but, until I spun this LP, I had never heard anything like it. And that includes the rest of Blake&#8217;s oeuvre (the two EPs he released after this album and the one he released just before it are fair-to-middling at best). This whole record is singular in sounding like a rainy May afternoon scored by a drunk given Vicodin and valium.</p>
<p><em>James Blake</em>&#8216;s saddest moment (the &#8220;Lindisfarne&#8221; suite) sounds like a stoned phone call made to an ex-lover. Its centerpiece (a cover of Feist&#8217;s &#8220;Limit to Your Love&#8221; which kicks the crap out of the original) sounds, with its delicate piano punctuated by tense and wobbling bass, like the postcoital moments of semi-clarity that take place after one&#8217;s had ill-advised post-breakup alcohol-induced sex. Hell, its most energetic, aggressive moment (&#8220;To Care&#8221;) <em>still</em>sounds stoned and drunk. This could be hideous (ever create something while drunk and then really look at it the next day?), but Blake pulls it off with aplomb.</p>
<p>For those of you who have no frame of reference for my stream of intoxication metaphors, the LP somehow recreates in sound the loveliness of the moments right before one falls asleep. When you&#8217;re conscious enough to know you&#8217;re pretty much unconscious. Free of the burden of being alive, but not dead, thus able to appreciate it. But despite the fact that it&#8217;s always lovely to feel that impending freedom from consciousness, &#8220;loveliness&#8221; is not at all a synonym for &#8220;happiness.&#8221; That moment on the cusp of sleep can be simultaneously beautiful and sad (&#8220;This bed is warm, but still feels empty without him/her&#8221;); it can be simultaneously beautiful and tense (&#8220;I have too much to do tomorrow, but for a while that won&#8217;t matter at all&#8221;). As I explained in my June write-up of the year&#8217;s 20 Best Tracks, there’s a scene in Charlie Kaufman’s <em>Adaptation</em> where a Native American, who may or may not be stoned, caresses the protagonist’s face and says, “I can see your sadness. It’s lovely.” Throughout this self-titled LP, I can hear Blake’s. And it is. Lovely.</p>
<p>For its innovation and, so far as I know, uniqueness (and I&#8217;m using the adjective &#8220;unique&#8221; correctly here; read <a href="http://www.drgrammar.org/frequently-asked-questions#53" target="_blank">the second from the bottom</a>), this album should have placed higher on my list. Why didn&#8217;t it? Simply put, Blake&#8217;s lyrics are generally so nonsensical he makes the bulk of Beck&#8217;s <em>Midnite Vultures</em> sound positively lucid and many of the songs consist of a single phrase repeated (for a very good reason, but <em>still</em>).</p>
<p>Incidentally, in addition to being the Year of the Unironic Saxophone Solo, 2011 was the year of cover art either so appropriate it affects one&#8217;s perception of the album (like both physical albums and music videos used to do) or, conversely, cover art so fucking ugly I wish I were the kind of man who was Type-B enough to leave some of my mp3/AAC/FLAC files imageless (Man Man, The Pains of Being Pure at Heart). And the cover of <em>James Blake</em> pretty well sums up its sonic quality, its blurry, confused, blue mood. If maybe you&#8217;d like to feel the temperate haziness of one glass of red wine on a largely empty stomach, but still be able to responsibly operate machinery, this is the record for you.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images8.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="images8"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2216" title="images8" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images8-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>9. Radiohead—<em>The King of Limbs</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong><em>The King of Limbs </em>is radically different than it first appears. Where it feels unbearable, unmanageable, it is actually tightly managed. Where it feels beautiful and relaxed, it is dangerously unmoored. And all throughout, it’s definitely Radiohead being Radiohead, but the baby steps are what make this album remarkable. White noise. Absent melodies. Insistent bass. <em>Limbs</em> is not a sequel to <em>In Rainbows</em>, but it does, as I said, share its spirit of being art without pretense or condescension. <em>Limbs</em> looks flashier. At first, it sounds like it’s <em>Kid A</em>-defiant. It isn’t. It is nothing more or less than what happens when five open-minded and talented musicians come together and decide to do what they do best, but this time, they try to do it better—like any good artist should.</p>
<p>And <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/king-of-limbs/" target="_blank">here&#8217;s</a> a psychotically in-depth review of the album. I tend to live for years at a time in between girlfriends. This is the sort of thing that can end up happening.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images2.jpeg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="images2"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2241" title="images2" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images2-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>8. Cults—<em>Cults</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong><strong><em></em></strong>I only remembered this album when I was checking out other critics&#8217; year-ending Best Of lists. When it was released, I&#8217;d meant to buy it but, overwhelmed by the other ten very anticipated new LPs by favorite artists to which I&#8217;d not yet listened, I held off and, eventually, completely forgot what I was supposed to eventually get around to. So it was mid-December before it crossed my path again and, although I really was intrigued and did want to give it a fair shake, at that point, I thought to myself, &#8220;Wonderful, <em>another</em> record I have to cram in before I compile my list.&#8221; This may sound like an odd sentiment coming from a man who claims to enjoy music, but it&#8217;s not easy for me to find the time to give every new LP five undistracted listens. Especially if I don&#8217;t have the will, because the record is tedious or worse. Five uninterrupted listens is several hours in which I&#8217;m doing nothing but checking out a record, and sometimes I can barely find the time to sleep. Regardless, I caved, and am obviously extraordinarily glad I did.</p>
<p><em>Cults</em> is the most fun I&#8217;ve had with an album since Sleigh Bells&#8217; <em>Treats</em>, and it is, in fact, far, <em>far </em>more fun than<em> Treats</em>. In fact, it might be a better LP. The album is pure pop, but it&#8217;s underscored by serious darkness. It&#8217;s black bubblegum. Someone (whom I would certainly credit if I could recall his or her name or where I read the sentiment) once said that the most powerful popular music is that which wraps something subversive in the prettiest package; the sort of music that slips something spectacular and unexpected into something that seems nonthreatening. Radiohead&#8217;s unbelievably bleak &#8220;No Surprises&#8221; comes to mind, as it sounds like something you&#8217;d play a baby to put it to sleep, when really it&#8217;s something you&#8217;d play while waiting in the running car for the garage to fill up with gas. Every song on <em>Cults </em>is epitomic of this idea. It sounds like a heavy-reverb update of 1950s prom and sock hop rock. Bouncy, familiar, safe. But lyrically, it&#8217;s the sort of thing that, while not terribly profound, would get that sock hop-ready teen sent to the counselor&#8217;s office if it were turned in to his or her high school teacher as a project. Also, it&#8217;s worth mentioning that the vocal samples that punctuate the album are all from cult leaders—the kind of people whose lives tend to end with mass murder.</p>
<p>When I received the record, I was worried that I&#8217;d be unable to find the time for five full listens in the few remaining days of 2011 (and I&#8217;m too neurotic to not finish my list before the year was out). As it turned out, I listened to it five times in a row. Not because I had to, but because I could. <em>Cults</em> is like meeting a new lover and, for that first month, wanting to spend every second together. Maybe it won&#8217;t lead to anything deep or profound, but for a bit, it will be the most fun you can remember having.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images7.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="images7"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2215" title="images7" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images7-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>7. The Antlers—Burst Apart</strong></p>
<p><strong></strong><em>Burst Apart</em> is not a break-up record. I know break-up records, and love unashamedly their schizoid mournful/furious/desperate attitude. Much of the best music I own, now that I think of it, is essentially break-up music. But instead, The Antlers seem to have put together an excellent record to play during the Death Stage of a relationship. It&#8217;s an LP for denouement. A score for the waning days when both parties know what&#8217;s coming, what should come, but neither is courageous enough to make the first of the last moves.</p>
<p><em>Burst Apart </em>covers the end stretch when you&#8217;re not experiencing intimacy; &#8220;Hounds&#8221; conveys this with either sarcasm or longing<strong>—</strong>it actually doesn&#8217;t matter. &#8221;I want to speak for you/ as if I know what you’ll do.&#8221; It covers the days when you&#8217;re so <em>out</em> of love you&#8217;re borderline disgusted by your significant other—the days when sex, for either curative or palliative purposes, is out of the question. The plea to just call it quits already, &#8220;Parentheses,&#8221; says it well: &#8220;Close up your knees/ and I&#8217;ll close your parentheses.&#8221; It covers the sudden moment when you realize your affair is doomed to fail. The gorgeous and warped-sounding piano of &#8220;Corsicana&#8221; describes it well, with the tale of a couple who wake up too late to do anything about the fact that their house is on fire (excellent metaphor; <a href="http://www.newyorker.com/reporting/2009/09/07/090907fa_fact_grann" target="_blank">true story</a>.)</p>
<p>Instrumental &#8220;Tiptoe&#8221; is the sound of walking on eggshells to avoid yet another fight. The record&#8217;s opener, &#8220;I Don&#8217;t Want Love&#8221; is pretty plain about its rejection of connection. &#8220;Bruised down below/ I should have built better walls/ I should have slept in my clothes.&#8221; <em>Seinfeld </em>once analogized breaking up with <a href="http://www.seinfeldscripts.com/TheVoice.htm" target="_blank">a lover to tipping over a cola vending machine</a>: &#8220;[B]reaking up is like knocking over a coke machine. You can’t do it in one push, you got to rock it back and forth a few times, and then it goes over.&#8221; &#8220;I Don&#8217;t Want Love&#8221; even sketches that—the actually-&#8221;mid&#8221;-and-not-really-&#8221;post&#8221;-breakup stretch. And &#8220;Every Night My Teeth Are Falling Out&#8221; gorgeously underscores the feeling of helplessness that&#8217;s perpetually present at the end of every lengthy tryst.</p>
<p>The Antlers&#8217; <em>Burst Apart</em> is the most lyrically coherent and intelligently penned record of the year which, after the mind-explodingly gorgeous and epic <em>Hospice</em>, should come as a surprise to no one. And, if it&#8217;s worth anything to anyone, in a year of spectacular cover art (which I really believe affects one&#8217;s perception of the album, even if it&#8217;s just to tint the songs a certain color—in this case, jaundiced), the LP takes first place. Aesthetically pleasant and possessed of enough presence that I could write pages analyzing the image.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images4.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="images4"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2212" title="images4" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images4-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>6. Blouse—<em>Blouse</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong>I would really like to be able to say something about this record that no one else is capable of saying. That&#8217;s the whole point of writing: To present your voice to the world, to contribute something to a conversation that would otherwise be uncontributable, since your voice—if not the contents of your thoughts—is indubitably unique. I&#8217;d've liked to give Blouse&#8217;s debut the sort of idiosyncratic review which could only come from me.  Unfortunately, <a href="http://pitchfork.com/reviews/albums/15993-blouse-st/" target="_blank">Lindsay Zoladz summed up the spirit of the album</a> better than I could have imagined. Actually, she <em>meta</em>sums it up, invoking her own inspiring lines. And after doing so, I now better understand why my whole life I&#8217;ve been enamored by the use of detuned or broken instruments and, for the past few years, things that sound like they were recorded by holding a Memorex in a cassette deck in front of an AM radio&#8217;s speakers.</p>
<p>&#8220;I often return to this line from Simon Reynolds&#8217; <em>Retromania</em>: &#8220;Unlike digital formats, analogue degrades through overuse: each listener kills the sound she loves.&#8221; There&#8217;s a certain comfort in that kind of reciprocity, and anyone who&#8217;s ever accidentally reset the listening history on their iTunes library and felt like they&#8217;d wiped a part of their identity clean is familiar with the digital world&#8217;s maddening indifference to our affection. With that observation, Reynolds hits on the unifying and fundamentally human allure of chillwave, lo-fi, smear-pop, and any other kind of contemporary music that makes a conscious choice in an Auto-Tuned world to sound less than pristine. It&#8217;s music trying to approximate the grubby, hopelessly destructive way we love books, records, and each other.&#8221;Yes. Thank you, Simon and Lindsay.</p>
<p>The best I can offer to follow that act is a recommendation of standout songs:<em> &#8221;Into Black,&#8221; &#8220;They Always Fly Away,&#8221; and &#8220;Videotapes.&#8221; Blouse</em> is nostalgic without feeling contrived; it&#8217;s familiar without feeling derivative; it&#8217;s simultaneously old and new.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images6.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="images6"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2214" title="images6" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images6-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>5. Neon Indian—<em>Era Extraña</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong>Someone once proposed to me the question, &#8220;What&#8217;s your favorite three-song sequence?&#8221; I stared blankly at that person or at least <em>would</em> have if we&#8217;d ever met. Instead, I stared blankly at his or her words on my monitor, pondering. My initial reply was simply, &#8220;What in the hell does that mean?&#8221; He or she went on to explain that, many of the best albums—even the ones that are great all the way from front to back—have certain core segments which make them excellent, which allow them to transcend other records and become not merely art, but awe-inspiring opuses. Most people take sequencing for granted but, having myself assembled a collection of short fiction, a smaller fiction collection (comprising completely different pieces) that functioned as my master&#8217;s thesis, and a forthcoming collection of poems, I can tell you it&#8217;s actually arduous and frequently a little heartbreaking. There&#8217;s no right answer, except there <em>is</em>. Sequencing something perfectly is like answering a Zen koan.</p>
<p>As I was on <a href="http://www.echoingthesound.net" target="_blank">a Nine Inch Nails message board</a>, the examples tended to be from Reznor&#8217;s records: &#8220;Ruiner,&#8221; &#8220;The Becoming,&#8221; and &#8220;I Do Not Want This&#8221; from 1994&#8242;s <em>Downward Spiral </em>was frequently cited; so was &#8220;The Fragile,&#8221; &#8220;Just Like You Imagined,&#8221; and &#8220;Even Deeper from 1999&#8242;s <em>The Fragile</em>. &#8220;Everything in Its Right Place,&#8221; &#8220;Kid A,&#8221; and &#8220;The National Anthem,&#8221; from Radiohead&#8217;s 2000 record, <em>Kid A</em>, was also popularly agreed upon. I&#8217;m sure you get the idea. This year, many records were excellently sequenced (Radiohead, The Weeknd, Reznor &amp; Ross&#8217; <em>Girl With the Dragon Tattoo</em>, Panda Bear, St. Vincent&#8217;s <em>Strange Mercy</em>, Tune-Yards&#8217; <em>Whokill</em>), <em>Era Extraña </em>takes the blue ribbon for not only best overall of 2011, but it enters contention for Best Three-Song Sequence I&#8217;ve heard: &#8220;Polish Girl,&#8221; &#8220;The Blindside Kiss,&#8221; and &#8220;Hex Girlfriend.&#8221; It doesn&#8217;t hurt that they&#8217;re bookended by two separate instrumental numbers meant to segregate them from the rest of the record. It actually <em>does </em>hurt the record itself, however, that these three lead off what is an outstanding LP—but there is just no way to follow, with tracks 6-11, that opening act.</p>
<p><em>Extraña </em>is a <em>huge</em> maturation from 2009&#8242;s still-Top-Ten-excellent <em>Psychic Chasms. </em>Without losing any of his idiosyncrasies, Palomo (another more or less one-man act) put together a polished and cleaner record that makes his debut sound like the best demo tape you&#8217;ve ever heard. Listening to it now, I sort of think to myself, &#8220;Man, when you give this guy a little funding it&#8217;s flat-out amazing what he can make happen.&#8221; Neon Indian did precisely what Merril Garbus failed to do with Tune-Yards&#8217; second record. Palomo&#8217;s lyrics are better (some of them are actually quite delightful) and his sound is similarly distinctive, without feeling like you&#8217;re just falling for what&#8217;s begun to feel gimmicky (something that Sleigh Bells and The XX will struggle with in 2012). <em>Extraña </em>shows evolution along a well-defined trajectory, something that&#8217;s hard to do—after <em>Picaresque</em>, The Decemberists&#8217; <em>Crane Wife</em>,<em> Hazards of Love</em>, and<em> King Is Dead</em> are successive sudden mutations that feel awkward and occasionally alienating, regardless of whether or not they&#8217;re &#8220;good.&#8221; Pretend Neon Indian records are mint chocolate ice cream with bright rainbow sprinkles. If you liked the flavor of a Neon Indian LP in 2009, and the taste of the different taste of the one-off &#8220;Sleep Paralysist&#8221; in 2010, then you&#8217;ll love 2011&#8242;s LP—it&#8217;s also a bowl mint chocolate ice cream with rainbow sprinkles, but made with a better recipe.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images9.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="images9"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2217" title="images9" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images9-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>4. Washed Out—<em><strong>Wit</strong>hin and Without</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong><strong><em></em></strong><strong><em></em></strong>If it&#8217;s not already obvious, I&#8217;m a lyric man. When it comes to pop music, the words the singer sings will make or break an album for me<strong>—</strong>this is why Beck&#8217;s <em>Sea Change</em> seemingly inexplicably receives a higher rating from me than the not merely groundbreaking, but earth-shattering <em>Odelay</em>. Why I consider <em>Siamese Dream</em> quite inferior to <em>Pisces Iscariot—</em>one of rock music&#8217;s most highly regarded and coherent albums falters, in my opinion, before a collection of freakin&#8217; B-sides. Having said this, it&#8217;s maybe worth a little more when I say that <em>Within and Without</em> is one of my favorite records of the year despite the fact that <em>I almost never have any idea what the fuck Ernest Green</em> (the man behind Washed Out) <em>is saying</em>.</p>
<p>As I said above, 2011 seems to have been the year of alternately brilliantly applicable cover art or cover art so ugly I started looking for duct tape to wrap around the album when it arrived in the mail. In the case of Washed Out, it&#8217;s the former. And the image to the left actually works well as a springboard to talking about the music it accompanies. The album sounds every bit as crisp and clean as those white, white sheets; it&#8217;s as smooth as the lovers&#8217; skin and as relaxedly passionate as their embrace; it&#8217;s every bit as rumpled as the bed spread and as enigmatic as those faceless folks themselves. It&#8217;s also worth mentioning that the LP is sexy as hell, without feeling sleazy or pornographic (although that can also be great; see The Weeknd). Seriously: Fucking kudos to whoever listened to the record and then managed to precisely recreate the LP&#8217;s sound using only a camera.</p>
<p><em>Within and Without</em> is certainly of the &#8220;chillwave&#8221; oeuvre that is currently being both butchered and defined by a dozen or more acts; the record sounds like what some people call &#8220;bedroom music&#8221; (despite the previous allusions to the content of the cover, I do not mean this in a sexual way; &#8220;bedroom music&#8221; is actually its own critical sub-genre<em>)</em>, put together on a glowing silver Macbook instead of a shitty four-track recorder. (Guess I&#8217;m not incorrect, <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/File:Washed_Out.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" target="_blank">this image</a> popped up when I googled &#8220;Washed Out.&#8221;) This is an interesting juxtaposition. While remaining intimate and simplistic in many ways, the record never sounds inscrutable (see: the entirely alright, samey-samey-sounding and critically overrated 2011 self-titled by <a href="http://pitchfork.com/reviews/albums/15873-the-year-of-hibernation/" target="_blank">Youth Lagoon</a>) or affected (see: Sleep ∞ Over&#8217;s <a href="http://pitchfork.com/reviews/albums/15858-sleep-over-forever/?utm_campaign=search&amp;utm_medium=site&amp;utm_source=search-ac" target="_blank"><em>Forever</em></a>). Simultaneously, it never ends up too slick—the kind of record that feels monolithic, like something with no pores into which one might sink; defined to the point of feeling too controlled to really be intriguing. It&#8217;s <a href="http://www.google.com/imgres?q=cleopatra%27s+needle&amp;um=1&amp;hl=en&amp;client=safari&amp;sa=N&amp;rls=en&amp;biw=1679&amp;bih=914&amp;tbm=isch&amp;tbnid=8Do_5GKVRiTqbM:&amp;imgrefurl=http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Cleopatra%27s_Needle&amp;docid=PBykxTj2fTzcEM&amp;imgurl=http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/commons/thumb/f/f8/Cleopatra%2527s_Needle_(London)_inscriptions.jpg/220px-Cleopatra%2527s_Needle_(London)_inscriptions.jpg&amp;w=220&amp;h=350&amp;ei=xBIUT6acLefm0QG2o7ivAw&amp;zoom=1&amp;iact=hc&amp;vpx=168&amp;vpy=132&amp;dur=415&amp;hovh=280&amp;hovw=176&amp;tx=85&amp;ty=166&amp;sig=118096988952810142662&amp;page=1&amp;tbnh=114&amp;tbnw=71&amp;start=0&amp;ndsp=59&amp;ved=1t:429,r:0,s:0" target="_blank">Cleopatra&#8217;s Needle</a>, not the <a href="http://tvtropes.org/pmwiki/pmwiki.php/Main/TheMonolith" target="_blank">monolith from <em>2001</em></a>.</p>
<p>Excellent all-around, there&#8217;s a part of me that was heartbroken when the vinyl didn&#8217;t arrive with a lyric sheet. But there&#8217;s a part of me that was relieved. A reviewer to whom, once again, I&#8217;d give credit if I could recall his or her name or where I read his or her essay, once said of My Bloody Valentine&#8217;s <em>Loveless</em> that it&#8217;s like an extraordinarily beautiful boy or girl seen across the room at a smoky party. Just like you&#8217;d want a closer look at this magnetic creature; that album&#8217;s sound makes you want something that&#8217;s exactly the same, but just a little <em>more</em>. But such a thing isn&#8217;t possible; if you get closer to that boy or girl, you start to see flaws, you begin to see things that were different or better in your head. <em>Within and Without</em> is similarly enigmatic. It sounds to me like &#8220;Canzonetta sull&#8217;aria,&#8221; from <em>Marriage of Figaro</em>, sounded to Morgan Freeman in<em> The Shawshank Redemption</em>: &#8220;I&#8217;d like to think they were singing about something so beautiful, it can&#8217;t be expressed in words, and makes your heart ache because of it.&#8221; <em>Within and Without</em> is an excellent record, and if I find a lyric sheet, I <em>will</em> read it. But there&#8217;s a piece of me that hopes I never do. <em>Within and Without </em>is already sort of perfect the way it is.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images3.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="images3"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2211" title="images3" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/12/images3-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>3. Cold Cave—<em>Cherish the Light Years</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong><strong><em></em></strong><strong><em></em></strong>In early 1995, the female lead from an opening band for Marilyn Manson (I don&#8217;t recall whom) took the tee shirt off of my back and signed it. I was sweat drenched, which had made my mascara run; black liner was smeared from wiping my eyes and my blackened lips had cracked and looked chappy. My dyed hair hung in clots. I wore combat boots and military-issue overboot gaiters, leather pants you could probably smell from the outside, and a fishnet shirt. I shivered while I waited for the return of my outer shell. When she passed it back, the singer, she kissed me gently on the lips and said, &#8220;You rock, kid.&#8221; The autograph read, &#8220;Back in the day, there was goth. I loved goth. I love you.&#8221; This was the age before Hot Topic so, admittedly, I was something of an anomaly. Listening through Cold Cave&#8217;s <em>Cherish the Light Years</em>, I felt the same way about the record as that singer claimed she did about me. And I missed my long hair, lipstick, and nose ring.</p>
<p>Once again, the album&#8217;s cover accurately portends what&#8217;s coming. The music is darkly sexy and the sort of sound implied by &#8220;goth&#8221; when the word was more associated with Joy Division than Slipknot. The LP combines the best of Depeche Mode, The Cure, Joy Division, and <em>Pretty Hate Machine-</em>era Nine Inch Nails. Synth notes turn sour; some tracks (opener &#8220;The Great Pan Is Dead&#8221; is the album&#8217;s most straightforward and raucous song) are aggressive and frenetic, but never not danceable, and all the while everything is shrouded by a veil of gloom. It&#8217;s a record on which 75% of the songs would thrill the guy you know who still wears mostly black and a wallet chain even though he&#8217;s aged way out of that being appropriate; and yet 75% of its songs would also please the twenty-something club-going young lady who just wants to put on something gaudy and go out to drink cosmos, and do some dancing with the girls.</p>
<p>Lyrics like &#8220;I feel guilty being alive/ when so many beautiful people have died&#8221;; &#8220;Forever haunted by the roads I know/ If not above, then I&#8217;ll see you below&#8221;; and &#8220;They said the meek shall inherit the earth/ oh, god, that seems like so much work&#8221; not only belie the idea that the gothiness of the act means it&#8217;s all style and no substance. They also make me positively miss the black vinyl and clove smoke my angst-ridden adolescence (not something that comes easy to me). Importantly, like Blouse above, the work isn&#8217;t purely derivative. Wesley Eisold (the soul of Cold Cave) has created something new here, though to do so he definitely strip-mined the past. But this record could not have been made in 1984. Nor could it have been made in &#8217;94 or &#8217;04. And it&#8217;s not for the angsty teenage version of me. No, <em>Light Years</em> is an album for adults, adults who have grown tired of living in the future (because, let&#8217;s face it: if you were between ten and fourteen years of age in 1990, iPhones at least sort of make you feel like you&#8217;re on <em>Star Trek</em>); it&#8217;s an LP for people weary of the false hope the computer/internet age keeps insisting is warranted. Thus, the digital instruments often sound flawed and the tone of every song is a sort of desperate disappointment.</p>
<p>But despite this inherent darkness, <em>Light Years</em> fights a decent fight with <em>Cults</em> as Most Fun Record of 2011. I don&#8217;t dance. I&#8217;ve never danced. But Cold Cave makes me wish I did.</p>
<p><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/Weeknd.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="Weeknd"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2246" title="Weeknd" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/Weeknd-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>2. The Weeknd—<em>House of Balloons</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong><strong><em></em></strong>At first, I believed this LP to be excellent simply because it was unexpected. It came from the farthest reaches of metaphorical left field. I&#8217;ve got a decently wide-ranging palate, and it&#8217;s still not the sort of thing I&#8217;d ever expect myself to buy. When explaining it to others, I&#8217;ve strung together the adjectives &#8220;syrupy,&#8221; &#8220;depraved,&#8221; &#8220;Canadian,&#8221; &#8220;lo-fi,&#8221; &#8220;indie,&#8221; and &#8220;R&amp;B&#8221;—which is something, upon reflection, that I never expected I&#8217;d have to do. And so I naturally thought its appeal was rooted in novelty. It is not.</p>
<p>Sampling both Siouxsie &amp; the Banshees and Beach House to great effect, the music itself is stellar; syrupy indeed and occasionally glitchy, but never without a groove. It stretches and echoes across minimalistic spaces—in some spaces, the record seems much more heavily influenced by ambient electronic acts than traditional R&amp;B. Abel Tesfaye (the man behind the record) occasionally pitch-shifts his voice intelligently, until it is simply another instrument. With this soundscape, he affects a mood to appropriately accompany his lyrics—lyrics which are testament to the variegated grotesqueries that can accompany first-world ennui. 75% of pop music is about sex and drugs, sure, but in the case of <em>House of Balloons</em>, the feeling of postcoital sweatiness and a lightheaded, heavy-chested high cannot be divorced from the experience. The music feels like what the words which surf atop it describe. As I said several times above, I&#8217;m first and foremost a lyric man. But fascinatingly, I feel that I&#8217;d react in fundamentally the same fashion to an instrumental version of <em>House of Balloons</em>.</p>
<p>Describing<em> James Blake</em>, I provided a non-depravity-related metaphor for describing the record because, if you don&#8217;t know what feeling pleasantly high is like, you&#8217;ll have had no idea what I&#8217;m on about. <em>House of Balloons</em> requires no such secondary metaphor, because it doesn&#8217;t require the first. The lyrics are about overindulgence in sex and drugs and depravity, and the music unmistakably feels grimy, it feels like the kind of sex that might prompt postcoital shame (opener &#8220;High for This&#8221; boils down to &#8220;I know you don&#8217;t usually do drugs, but I&#8217;m going to fuck you in ways so intense and perverse that you&#8217;re probably going to want to get high beforehand as a precautionary measure&#8221;); it feels overindulgent and lonely in places (sometimes at the same time); and it feels desperate, insistent, and dizzy quite often. I&#8217;ve never stayed up for days on a cocktail of ecstasy and oxycontin while embroiled in what amounts to an orgy, a Bacchanal, but after hearing this record, I can&#8217;t help but feel like I have. That&#8217;s how effective Tesfaye is: after listening to <em>House of Balloons</em>, I feel pretty sure I can recall moments in my life that never actually happened. Impressive, to say the least.</p>
<p>One final note I feel suits the record well: I was blasting it after hours at my restaurant. I was alone; the lights were dim; I was sipping tequila. I may or may not have bothered with a glass; I was perhaps just clutching the bottle as I laid on my back—recumbent, half off the concrete surface of the bar. I was singing along to its seventh (and best) song, &#8220;Coming Down&#8221; (chorus &#8220;I always want you when I&#8217;m coming down&#8221; explored in detail <a href="sesquipedalism.com/20of2011" target="_blank">here</a>). A coworker came in and witnessed this; someone else slung her a drink and they stuck around a while, to the end of the record and, I believe, through its first few tracks as, after it ended, it began to repeat. Excepting to drink and sing, I never moved. The next day she came to me and said, &#8220;You were pretty messed up last night, huh?&#8221; I agreed. And then she said something I will never forget.</p>
<p>&#8220;You know, I always knew you were pretty depressed, even though you&#8217;re tons of fun to go out with. But until I heard you listening to that record, I never really understood how sad you must actually be.&#8221; Under all the depravity and often despicable overindulgence, there is an undeniable and immutable profound sadness. It wasn&#8217;t the booze; everyone I work with has seen me over-imbibe. And it wasn&#8217;t the sloppy, recumbent position; I&#8217;m sort of notorious for getting myself comfortable in odd places. It was the record I was playing, participating in, that conveyed to her some important truth about the core of my being, my not-so-secret-but-I-guess-more-intense-than-I-let-on malaise. <em>That&#8217;s</em> the experience of <em>House of Balloons</em>.</p>
<p><strong><em><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/panda.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2208];player=img;" title="panda"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2245" title="panda" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2012/01/panda-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="150" height="150" /></a>1.</em> Panda Bear—<em>Tomboy</em></strong></p>
<p><strong><em></em></strong><strong><em></em></strong>2011&#8242;s only five-star record (though there were a few four-and-a-halfs) never takes a misstep. From the echoing choral vocals of sparse, simple opener &#8220;You Can Count on Me,&#8221; through the grating and pace-making intermission of &#8220;Drone,&#8221; all the way to the spacey denouement of &#8220;Benfica,&#8221; <em>Tomboy </em>is a work of pure decadence. Sacrificing only a bit of the richness of the layer cake that was 2007&#8242;s critically acclaimed <em>Person Pitch</em>, Noah Lennox manages to create a dense record with the skewed pop sensibilities of Animal Collective&#8217;s (his other project) also-lauded <em>Merriweather Post Pavilion</em>. Lennox made much, during the lead-up to <em>Tomboy</em>&#8216;s release, of listening to Nirvana records and wanting to produce something simpler that his previous baroque work with the rhythm-driven tendencies found in a lot of rock and roll. It was ten or twenty listens in before I began to see just how, but this<em> is </em>that record. As such, <em>Tomboy </em>is one hell of an accomplishment.</p>
<p>Excellent lyrics are almost indecipherable in a number of cases—sometimes due to the stretching of syllables or the crunching of them—but Panda Bear&#8217;s signature Brian Wilson-like harmonies allow them to work as well as ambiance as they do when heard as more traditionally expositive text. But when one <em>can</em> catch them, they&#8217;re wonderful. &#8220;Is it the wise who know what wisdom is?&#8221; asks &#8220;Surfer&#8217;s Hymn,&#8221; as waves crash in the background, beneath what sound like mechanized wind chimes. &#8220;And when/ I slow/ it down/ it&#8217;s clear/ it&#8217;s how/ it&#8217;s what/ they don&#8217;t/ say that counts,&#8221; proclaims standout &#8220;Slow Motion.&#8221; The eerie somberness of &#8220;Scheherezade&#8221; makes the statement &#8220;I see it all the time/ though I might not desire./ But if I <em>could</em> do/ then what I would do/ to you&#8221; both romantic and discomfiting. In &#8220;Last Night at the Jetty,&#8221; Lennox addresses the person to whom he sings: &#8220;Didn&#8217;t we have a good time?/ I know we had a good time.&#8221; Later, he asks himself, &#8220;Didn&#8217;t I have a good time?&#8221; quickly following the question with &#8220;I know I had a good time.&#8221; The doubt, the self-deception in both statements is palpable and eminently relatable.</p>
<p>But the music, too, is unforgettable. Panda Bear managed to make that rock-influenced record without, for the most part, using anything that really resembles rock instruments. Drums are muted, usually; in the beginning of &#8220;Jetty,&#8221; they sound like a mashup of clapping hands and cannonfire. The piano of &#8220;Slow Motion&#8221; sounds like I&#8217;m about an hour into a decent LSD trip. And is that trembling sheet metal I hear in there? Is the bass of &#8220;Friendship Bracelet&#8221; a fuzzed out bass guitar? Is it an upright? Is it synthesized? I have no idea. But it&#8217;s wonderful. I had no idea under what genre I should file Panda Bear&#8217;s other records (for the convenience of easy location in my iTunes library, not because I think everything must fit into a neat little box). I&#8217;ve never really solved that problem. <em>Tomboy</em> isn&#8217;t as complex an affair as <em>Person Pitch</em>, or as abstruse and effort as <em>Young Prayer</em>. It&#8217;s not as synthpop as <em>Merriweather Post Pavilion</em> or any other traditionally synth-heavy record and I&#8217;ve never understood anyone who called Lennox&#8217;s Collective &#8220;freak folk.&#8221; It&#8217;s not really lo-fi or bedroom music and it&#8217;s not Neon Indian/Washed Out-brand chillwave. So what the hell is it? <em>Tomboy</em> manages to indeed be best described as an indie rock record without being much like any other indie rock record in my collection.</p>
<p>Douglas Adams once said of The Beatles, &#8220;The next exciting thing was that they kept on losing me. They would bring out a new album and for a few listenings it would leave me cold and confused. Then gradually it would begin to unravel itself in my mind. I would realize that the reason I was confused was that I was listening to something that was simply unlike anything that anybody had done before&#8230;The Beatles were now not just writing songs, they were inventing the very medium in which they were working.&#8221; While maybe that&#8217;s a bit of an overstatement regarding <em>Tomboy</em>, the sentiment is very much the same. I listened to this album seventy times (that&#8217;s not hyperbolic) in 2011 and I feel like I&#8217;m just finally getting a handle on it.</p>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 13 Dec 2011 08:35:31 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p></p> <p>Earlier this year, Amoskeag Journal, out of New Hampshire, published my short story &#8220;[sic].&#8221; Recently, I had the good fortune to be deemed by their editors worthy of an interview and, should you so choose, you&#8217;ll be able to read that interview here, on January 8th—allegedly it will &#8220;go live&#8221; around noon.</p> <p>If you <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/interview-with-amoskeag/">Interview with Amoskeag</a></span>]]></description>
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<p>Earlier this year, <em>Amoskeag Journal</em>, out of New Hampshire, published my short story &#8220;[sic].&#8221; Recently, I had the good fortune to be deemed by their editors worthy of an interview and, should you so choose, you&#8217;ll be able to read that interview <a href="http://amoskeagjournal.wordpress.com/category/author-spotlight-interviews/" target="_blank">here</a>, on January 8th—allegedly it will &#8220;go live&#8221; around noon.</p>
<p>If you haven&#8217;t read it, in the story, a caregiver discovers a typographical error on his birth certificate, which allows him to develop a second self, capable of many things which he is not. If you&#8217;re curious, here&#8217;s <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/sic/" target="_blank">a sample</a>. Better yet, make me look good and <a href="http://amoskeagjournal.wordpress.com/ordering-information/" target="_blank">buy the issue</a>—I&#8217;ve read it cover to cover and it&#8217;s worth the measly $7 (which, in half the country, is cheaper than a pack of cigarettes).</p>
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		<pubDate>Thu, 29 Sep 2011 11:34:19 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p>Hi, kids. If you&#8217;ve landed on this website and read past its front page, there&#8217;s at least a 40% chance that you&#8217;re a nerd. And I offer that epithet in complimentary fashion—nerds are my people. We&#8217;re as much a family as any political party, any college fraternity, any professional football team or its fans. We&#8217;re <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/nerdflirting/">Nerd Flirting</a></span>]]></description>
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<p>A number of Sesquipedalism&#8217;s hits—yes, I monitor these things—come from repeat visitors. As such, I&#8217;ve deduced that, if you&#8217;re on this website and it&#8217;s not your first time, you&#8217;re probably a certain subset of Nerd: you&#8217;re what they used to call a &#8220;Bookworm.&#8221; A reader. A writer. Someone whose annoyed by the very obvious grammatical error in this sentence (imagine the pain it caused me to actually type it). If you&#8217;ve been here more than once, there&#8217;s a very real chance that you&#8217;re someone who, like me, may have had the urge to correct the syntax of bathroom graffiti (for which purpose, between 2003 and 2006, I carried a Sharpie whenever I went to the bar).</p>
<p>If this is, in fact, the case, you may also be a lonely soul. Romance often isn&#8217;t easy for our people, and you may sometimes wonder what it is that you could do in social settings to reduce the amount of wasted time spent smiling coyly at relative strangers who turn out to be complete ninnyhammers. If you choose to flirt, what might you do to make sure the lady or gentleman with whom you choose to mince words is another Bookworm? Well, if you don&#8217;t feel like memorizing and reciting bits of &#8220;To His Coy Mistress&#8221; to every potential, I offer an alternative. Here are nine perfectly cromulent pickup lines that work in a twofold manner: first, they will surely send the blood to the nether regions and naughty bits of any other word-minded Nerd—greatly increasing one&#8217;s chances of seriously nebbish sex later on; and second, they will likely cause a fairly immediate conversational miscarriage should you be making moves, wasting time, on a non-Nerd. You know—one of the lower folks. Some of them—and I&#8217;m guessing it&#8217;ll be obvious which—will only work for one sex or the other.</p>
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<p>01. &#8220;You know, I can tie a cherry stem into an ampersand using just my tongue. An ampersand <em>with</em> serifs.&#8221;</p>
<p>02. &#8220;I&#8217;ve got a set of parentheses for your interrobang.&#8221;</p>
<p>03. &#8221;My bedposts look just like pilcrows. Want to check them out?&#8221;</p>
<p>04. &#8220;Let&#8217;s go somewhere private and see if I can&#8217;t get you to make some high back vowel sounds.&#8221; (BONUS: If the flirtee is taken, you can throw in the insult: &#8220;I&#8217;ll bet your man/woman can only get you to make schwas.&#8221;)</p>
<p>05. &#8220;I can go longer than a Faulkner sentence.&#8221; (BONUS: Swap &#8220;Faulkner sentence&#8221; for &#8220;David Foster Wallace paragraph&#8221; if either party has or is suspected to have a foot fetish.)</p>
<p>06. &#8220;I know Godot never comes, but give me twenty minutes and you will.&#8221;</p>
<p>07. &#8220;When I look at you, I can&#8217;t stop thinking about doing something <em>wrong</em>. Yeah, I want to split you like an infinitive.&#8221;</p>
<p>08. &#8220;If you don&#8217;t come home with me, you&#8217;ll regret it more than time spent trying to finish <em>Finnegans Wake</em>.&#8221;</p>
<p>09. &#8220;I saw you from across the way and, let me tell you, my hyphen turned into an em-dash.&#8221;</p>
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<p>If all of these fail, but you&#8217;re certain you&#8217;re talking to a nerd, you can always offer to go and rehearse the end of Molly Bloom&#8217;s soliloquy. If they work, well, then I encourage you to shout out <em>en flagrante delicto, </em>&#8220;Quaff, oh quaff my sweet nepenthe, baby!&#8221;</p>
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		<title>The 20 Best Tracks of 2011 (So Far)</title>
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		<pubDate>Tue, 05 Jul 2011 14:58:17 +0000</pubDate>
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		<description><![CDATA[Tweet<p>I&#8217;ve been quiet awhile due to less than thrilling real-life concerns. Nothing exciting has kept me away from writing—a bloody shame, really, because the bit of fecund yin hidden in the aggravatingly dramatic yang that is often existence is the potential to later retell the tale to any number of ends: entertainment, education, commiseration, &#38;c. <span style="color:#999"> . . . &#8594; Read More: <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/20of2011/">The 20 Best Tracks of 2011 (So Far)</a></span>]]></description>
				<content:encoded><![CDATA[<div id="tweetbutton2079" class="tw_button" style="float:right;margin-left:10px;"><a href="http://twitter.com/share?url=http%3A%2F%2Fsesquipedalism.com%2F20of2011%2F&amp;via=Sesquipedalism&amp;text=The%2020%20Best%20Tracks%20of%202011%20%28So%20Far%29&amp;related=&amp;lang=en&amp;count=vertical&amp;counturl=http%3A%2F%2Fsesquipedalism.com%2F20of2011%2F" class="twitter-share-button"  style="width:55px;height:22px;background:transparent url('http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/plugins/wp-tweet-button/tweetn.png') no-repeat  0 0;text-align:left;text-indent:-9999px;display:block;">Tweet</a></div><p><span style="font-size: small;">I&#8217;ve been quiet awhile due to less than thrilling real-life concerns. Nothing exciting has kept me away from writing—a bloody shame, really, because the bit of fecund yin hidden in the aggravatingly dramatic yang that is often existence is the potential to later retell the tale to any number of ends: entertainment, education, commiseration, &amp;c. Most of the more tragic moments of my life are not adventures I&#8217;d ever choose to relive, nor things I&#8217;m pleased or proud to remember weathering in the first place, but because of the way my brain is arranged, I was, as those episodes unfolded, always able to cling to the idea that, hey, this exasperating bullshit that&#8217;s killing me may someday be put to use in entertaining or connecting with someone else. There was always that to salvage from tragedy. But sadly—or perhaps not—the yang of my present existence is merely mildly aggravating, grating from day to day, enervating for sure, but not dramatic enough to merit any retelling. Which is to say, it seems I am officially an adult: An unstimulating job provides no fodder for the construction of campfire anecdotes, and seems on a regular basis to be preventing me from enjoying the life it&#8217;s supposed to facilitate. However, there&#8217;s only so long I can go without writing before I start to feel more than a little miserable. My life is and has always been a pretty insular one, but without writing the isolation begins to feel less like solace and more like depressing desolation. As such, I&#8217;ve assembled this essay. A write-up of 2011&#8242;s Twenty Best Tracks may not be the pithiest thing, but nevertheless music is a passion of mine—one I love to share.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Dozens of my more beloved artists released new LPs this year; in fact, so many did so that the task of giving each LP a fair shake became daunting. A &#8220;fair shake&#8221; to me means a minimum of five spins, front to back, of any given album. A single spin I define as time spent listening during which I am doing little else besides basking in the music. That is to say, when I say I&#8217;ve given something a &#8220;fair shake,&#8221; what&#8217;s implied is that the record in question has gotten at the very least five full listens, and each time it&#8217;s had my complete attention. I wasn&#8217;t listening and doing my taxes, or listening and vacuuming, I was just <em>listening</em> like I did when I was a kid: Chain-smoking and accidentally dropping ash on the lyric booklet I was riffling through. Listening like I did when a new record had very real potential to change my life (and several certainly did). Such attention is, perhaps unsurprisingly, sometimes deleteriously time-consuming in an already busy adult life. After those first few spins is when I make the decision whether or not to keep the LP in question (I&#8217;ll ditch it if it happens to be hideously unlistenable) After that, I might just put it aside if I find it unexceptional or uninspired, or I might begin popping headphones into my ears every free second I have, engaging, obsessing, and beginning to form opinions in earnest on the art.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">In early 2011, new albums from long-adored acts The Decemberists, Bright Eyes, Death Cab for Cutie, Radiohead, Iron &amp; Wine, Panda Bear, and Saul Williams all demanded my attention. Though I was eager to oblige, it was more often than not difficult to find for them the time they deserved. I still, for instance, have yet to spin Williams&#8217; <em>Volcanic Sunlight</em>, despite the fact it&#8217;s an eagerly anticipated follow-up to one of only 35 records (out of 559 I own, and about two-hundred others, give or take, that I&#8217;ve discarded) to which I&#8217;ve given a perfect 5/5-star rating. On top of that, newer artists who&#8217;ve recently intrigued me—The Antlers, The Pains of Being Pure at Heart, Tune-Yards, The Kills, Bon Iver, and Fleet Foxes, to name a few—also dropped new discs (at this time, I have yet to spin <em>Bon Iver</em>). Add to this a steady stream of excellent records released by new artists or artists I&#8217;d never investigated (Man Man, The Weeknd, Unknown Mortal Orchestra, Coma Cinema, and James Blake), and it may start to become clear why, since January, every intriguing new LP released has been a bit of a stressor, and felt a bit like being assigned homework.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Without further delay, I present my carefully considered list of the twenty best tracks of 2011&#8242;s first half.</span></p>
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<p><span style="font-size: small;">Gibbard croons, &#8221;[T]hese fictions only prove/ How much you&#8217;ve really got to lose,&#8221; then continues as thunderous drums kick in, accompanied by analog synth sounds that call to mind morse code, &#8220;It&#8217;s either quite a master plan/ Or just chemicals that help us understand/ That when our hearts stop ticking/ This is the end and there&#8217;s nothing past this.&#8221; The last phrase of &#8220;Cathedral&#8221;—&#8221;there&#8217;s nothing past this&#8221;—repeats as the song fades, and this sentiment makes the chipper closer &#8220;Stay Young, Go Dancing&#8221; something other than the cloying number it has the potential to seem. Ultimately, <em>Codes</em> isn&#8217;t about reclaiming righteousness, or some ethical or spiritual purity, it&#8217;s about not wasting what little life we&#8217;re allotted. About finding a reason to live in <em>this </em>life. And as such, the song serves as decryption key for the rest of the record.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Key.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Key"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2083" title="Key" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Key-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>19. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/ir4pET" target="_blank">One for You, One for Me</a>,&#8221; Bright Eyes</strong>: Ironically, Bright Eyes&#8217; &#8220;One for You&#8221; could be (mis)taken as a song motivated by the opposite sentiment. In reality, the song is less about some grand spiritual truth, and more concerned with alienation. In the lackluster <em>Cassadaga</em>&#8216;s finest moment, &#8220;Four Winds,&#8221; Conor Oberst sings, &#8220;The Bible&#8217;s blind, the Torah&#8217;s deaf, the Koran is mute/ If you burned them all together, you&#8217;d be close to the truth,&#8221; then continues in the song&#8217;s refrain, &#8220;When Great Satan&#8217;s gone/ The Whore of Babylon/ She just can&#8217;t sustain/ The pressure where it&#8217;s placed/ And she breaks.&#8221; &#8220;The Whore of Babylon,&#8221; of course, is generally taken by Biblical scholars to mean &#8220;the church&#8221; as an institution. And so the message of &#8220;Four Winds&#8221; seemed to be that when The Other, the enemy, ceases to exist, religion will prove not only unnecessary, but dangerously divisive. The song&#8217;s first line illustrates the ironic truth that the enemy is whoever it is that keeps insisting there is an enemy: &#8220;Your class, your caste, your country, sect, your name or your tribe/ There&#8217;s people always dying trying to keep them alive.&#8221; &#8221;One for You, One for Me&#8221; picks up where this idea leaves off. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">In this, the final song on what is alleged to be the final Bright Eyes LP, Oberst asks &#8220;How did we get so far away from us?&#8221; in a bridge which divides two verses in which curiously contrasted personages and conditions are counted off: &#8220;[O]ne for the Führer, one for his child bride/ One for the wedding, one for the suicide.&#8221; The song wraps with the line &#8220;[Y]ou and me, that is an awful lie—It&#8217;s I and I&#8221; and in doing so, it succinctly explicates an idea that has been increasingly present in Bright Eyes&#8217; oeuvre: We are more the same than we are different and treating each other as The Other, as enemies and perpetual competitors, makes life much lousier than it need be. This is as good a place as any for Bright Eyes, as an entity, to end. As a project that originated in raw, trembling songs about loneliness and malaise (which were almost always superior musical creations to the band&#8217;s later work), it&#8217;s interesting to see such evolution. It&#8217;s difficult, in some ways, to reconcile the fact that the man who quite convincingly sang &#8220;Lover I Don&#8217;t Have to Love&#8221; and &#8220;Take It Easy&#8221; is the same man now singing &#8220;One for You, One for Me&#8221; with equivalent conviction.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Musically, the song works better than almost everything else on the record. It flows smoothly, and an undercurrent of ambient noises and what sounds like dissonant synth woodwinds and brass feels etherial—simultaneously doleful and complacent, expressive, perhaps, of the realization that existence, sad as is often is, doesn&#8217;t always have to be that way—as it floats atop a grounding, almost martial snare beat. Punctuated by little digital notes and, at its peak moments, a guitar that feels somewhat out of place (though not unpleasantly so), &#8220;One for You&#8221; ends up feeling like falling asleep after getting a good piece of news on what&#8217;s been an otherwise terrible day. Which, arguably, is a very concise way to summarize the arc of Bright Eyes.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Pressures.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Pressures"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2084" title="Pressures" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Pressures-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>18. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/jA2OuG" target="_blank">Satellite</a>,&#8221; The Kills</strong>: 2008&#8242;s <em>Midnight Boom</em> was a frenzied record in the best sense; a record I&#8217;d call &#8220;freewheeling&#8221; if the back jacket blurbs on every McSweeny&#8217;s-endorsed author&#8217;s text hadn&#8217;t ruined the word for me. It was unpredictable from track to track, characterized by unbridled moodiness. The very unsexy, very phlegmy cough that opens the rather sexy &#8220;Cheap &amp; Cheerful&#8221; has always, for me, served as ideal symbol of the record. Its high points—the off-kilter and wonderfully abrasive &#8220;Last Day of Magic,&#8221; the wistful &#8220;Black Balloon,&#8221; the lyrically ingenious and perfect penultimate number &#8220;What New York Used to Be&#8221; (see how long it takes you to figure out what it is that sex, New York, drugs, love, &amp;c. used to be), and the acoustic and piano closer &#8220;Goodnight, Bad Morning&#8221;—put on display a duo that had the range to do just about anything, which is why it&#8217;s so disappointing that <em>Blood Pressures</em> seems more or less like ten takes of the same song. I&#8217;m reminded of Filter&#8217;s debut <em>Short Bus</em>: It was a lead single, eight versions of the same song, and two versions of an obligatory slow piece. You were in luck if you happened to like the three songs which comprised the record, and I did. I also happen to like the one song <em>Blood Pressures </em>seems to be trying to perfect, but I think that perfection was nailed down with the deliciously dark &#8220;Satellite.&#8221; </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;"> Allison Mossheart and Jamie Hince&#8217;s voices intermingle ideally, sometimes indistinguishable, sometimes seeming like a single schizoid beast, sometimes seeming like two people face-to-face and singing the exact same jealous sentiments at each other. The lyrics in general don&#8217;t make a whole lot of sense (a big let down considering how lyrically enjoyable most of <em>Boom</em> was), but what becomes the song&#8217;s refrain—&#8221;I loved her too long/ Don&#8217;t love her, too&#8221;—is comprehensible enough and, I imagine, universal. It&#8217;s a cryptic way of summarizing the sentiment I have about several of my ex-girlfriends (the good ones): It would be nice if they happened to join a convent once we were through or, at the very least, if they moved far away and never returned. Because nothing&#8217;s worse than watching someone you know (inevitable in smaller cities) get together with someone you once loved and thinking to yourself, &#8220;My god, I know how she fucks&#8221;—which is actually less about the sex than it is about the intimacy; sex just happens to be the most corporeal approximation of that intimacy, of that love. Giving voice to this jealousy, Mossheart and Hince&#8217;s voices are intense and, as always,  sexy. I find it hard to believe that The Kills could produce a piece that didn&#8217;t drip at least a little bit of sexual tension. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">One of the best things about bands that don&#8217;t find the use of electronics Sith-like and abhorrent is the ability to produce things that sound <a href="http://bit.ly/lNxDRp" target="_blank">unnatural</a> (in the best sense of <em>that</em> word). The song&#8217;s guitars are wonderfully clipped and fuzzy; the abbreviated and Pro-Tooled treatment of them makes them sound tightly wound, like controlled chaos, like gnashing teeth, and white knuckles. Stacked atop the plodding drumbeat, &#8220;Satellite&#8221; is received as a heavy package, wrapped in brown paper folded so severely and precisely as to have deadly corners. Most of the rest of the album comes across similarly, like a line of less perfectly wrapped packages.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Suicide.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Suicide"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2085" title="Suicide" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Suicide-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>17. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/kbI6og" target="_blank">Greater Vultures</a>,&#8221; Coma Cinema</strong>: I&#8217;d never heard of Coma Cinema before being struck by this album&#8217;s cover art, and lured in by the fact that <a href="http://comacinema.org/sounds.html" target="_blank">the artist himself</a> is giving the record away for free (though I did, of course, end up buying it because I will never relent in my insistence that supporting the artist is mandatory). The album is solid, but not spectacular; &#8220;Eva Angelina&#8221; and &#8220;Greater Vultures&#8221; are its best musical moments. &#8220;Vultures,&#8221; however, takes the day because its chorus is so evocative, playing in different ways with the notion of willingness to &#8220;eat what the vultures will not.&#8221; </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">The song begins with a mournful analog drone; a guitar, gently strummed in rocking chair-style appears; and there&#8217;s something ineffably excellent about the way the drums are introduced. Reverbed vocals are unusually fronted in this decidedly lo-fi song. And though I&#8217;ve grown absolutely enraptured by the lo-fi/dreampop sound, this vocal-fronting is a pleasant change, and one which makes it almost easy to overlook the fact that song is strung together in a fairly delicate fashion: warbly synth, snare, and hi-hat are the primary vehicles which allow the track to move forward—if one pays close attention, &#8220;Vultures&#8221; seems to mostly comprise empty space. The lo-fi analog organ is well-juxtaposed with the alt-country guitar strum that accompanies every iteration of the question: Are you willing to eat what the vultures will not?</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Between the punctuative guitar strumming, the vocalist&#8217;s stuffy-nosed middle American drawl, and the repeated references to birds of prey, I can&#8217;t listen to this song without thinking of how incredibly lonely it can seem in the middle of this country. In the flat plains, wide and bright blue skies (called to mind by the singer&#8217;s etherial background cooing) can seem unbelievably oppressive: The flatness of the earth allows one to see the roundness of it, and the sky looks like an enclosing dome. That agoraphobic sense of nothingness one gets there, the feeling of insignificance, prompts the sort of desperation that would definitely compel me to literally or metaphorically eat what the vultures will not if it meant a chance of human connection. Even when faced by the vastness of the world/galaxy/universe, the illusion of safety in numbers persists. &#8220;Greater Vultures&#8221; conveys that desperation for continued connection, closing with the utterance, &#8220;<em>I</em> am willing to eat what the vultures will not.&#8221;</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Junior.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Junior"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2086" title="Junior" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Junior-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>16. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/lcN21x" target="_blank">Playtime</a>,&#8221; Junior Boys</strong>: The music released so far in 2011 has an odd number of unifying themes. Coming to my attention late last year with Ariel Pink&#8217;s Haunted Graffiti and Deerhunter&#8217;s &#8220;Coronado,&#8221; continuing in a big way in January with Destroyer&#8217;s <em>Kaputt</em>, then in February with Iron &amp; Wine, unironic saxophone solos have returned. Equally prevalent is a certain sort of nocturnal music; tunes that are incredibly evocative of the night—fucking, drugging, dying, &amp;c. The Weeknd and The Antlers released entire LPs of such music. &#8220;Playtime,&#8221; by the Junior Boys, is that sort of song. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Opening with a grating and dissonant hum, &#8220;Playtime&#8221; soon gives way to plangent keys that sound artificial, a bit like my 1986 laptop Casio keyboard on steroids. A simple 808 beat (also, I think, available on that laptop Casio)  is steady throughout the track, giving way only once near the four-minute mark for the lush strumming of a harp. Vocalist Jeremy Greenspan&#8217;s mellow breathiness is reminiscent of George Michael at his best and the song, at an intimidating seven-minutes, well-replicates the sort of long, post-breakup night one could imagine a pre-&#8221;Faith&#8221; Michael scoring: Sitting at a dimly lit a hotel bar with no intention of moving on or picking someone up, and ready to hiss at whoever turns the house lights up at evening&#8217;s end. Nothing&#8217;s worse, at the end of that sort of awful evening, than being forced to find something else to do. Going into the seven-minute song, I always have the irrational fear that I don&#8217;t have time to see it through, that it will feel interminable; after about thirty seconds, I&#8217;m gripped by the opposite fear: I want nothing less than for it to be over, because then I&#8217;ll have to find something else to listen to.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Lyrically, the song seems to back up the emotion it creates. Greenspan, amping up that moody tension, sings, &#8220;Come a little closer/ Stare a little longer, like competitors do/ Because this fight&#8217;s forever/ And if it breaks up we&#8217;ll have nothing to do.&#8221; Even the healthiest of relationships is always on some level a struggle for power, but if it weren&#8217;t, all relationships would be awfully stagnant. Human satisfaction is born out of victory over resistance. &#8220;Playtime&#8221; seems to understand this and, listening, I imagine myself sitting in that hotel bar, working out way to explain to someone that I&#8217;d rather spend the rest of my life fighting with her, than I would spend it bored to tears by someone acquiescent. &#8220;Playtime&#8221; gets gradually quieter through its last minute. And though I&#8217;m generally not a fan of the fade-out as a technique to end songs, in this case it works because it&#8217;s emotionally consistent and 100%  necessary.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Belong.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Belong"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2087" title="Belong" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Belong-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>15. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/mibcCd" target="_blank">Strange</a>,&#8221; The Pains of Being Pure at Heart</strong>: It took me ten spins to grow fond of The Pains&#8217; <em>Belong</em>. I was instantly a fan of their self-titled debut and, the follow-up—produced by Flood and mixed by Alan Moulder: men responsible for some of my favorite records ever—seemed a guaranteed hit, until I listened to it. Sure, I didn&#8217;t want the band to pigeonhole themselves in the mid-80s twee sound they&#8217;d debuted with, but I was somewhat disappointed that they&#8217;d evolved so predictably. Like most of the original shoegaze bands, the debut was a airy and dreamy affair, followed up by something a bit more ragged; and during the recording sessions, someone had suggested, &#8220;Hey, what if we distorted the guitars and, like, turned the volume <em>way </em>up?&#8221; <em>Belong</em> follows this formula to a degree, but is, after consideration, more than that. And while critics made a lot of fuss over its ho-hum, formulaic opener, &#8220;Belong,&#8221; I cleave to its closer, &#8220;Strange.&#8221; </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Over a driving percussion line, a jangle-pop guitar strum coupled with a subtle synth line recalls Flood &amp; Moulder&#8217;s work with both Billy Corgan and My Bloody Valentine without seeming unpleasantly derivative. That alone makes me nostalgic for being thirteen, smoking cigarettes out my bedroom window, thinking about how lifelong devotion to a girl whose name I wouldn&#8217;t remember in six months was definitely the destiny of my heart. By the time I was fourteen, I&#8217;d quit trying to please people, trying to weasel my way into places I&#8217;d never belong, and I&#8217;d discovered the joys of black lipstick and pissing people off. In the years between Joy Division and the rise of Marilyn Manson, this made me a complete enigma: It was pre-Columbine, so I think people were confused as to whether I was going to try to fuck them or kill them. At home, I sat lonely and played air guitar to Corgan&#8217;s &#8220;Mayonnaise.&#8221; But eventually, there was another guy in the same make-up. And then, there were a few girls. &#8220;Strange&#8221; makes me long—actually ache rather painfully—for that time. &#8221;Don&#8217;t tell me that a day will come/ When we dress like everyone/ &#8216;Cos I can tell you&#8217;re strange like me,&#8221; vocalist Berman sings. We were all always misfits, but all the trappings—the fishnets, and black boots, and nose rings, and eyeliner—were what allowed us to finally identify each other, and begin forging little alliances. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">I remember thinking in 1995, when the Pumpkins released their single &#8220;1979,&#8221; that it made me queerly nostalgic for the present moment. That seems impossible, but the feeling the song gave me, I guess, was one of certainty that things wouldn&#8217;t always be the way they were right then: I wouldn&#8217;t always be sneaking out in the middle of the night to try and smoke a joint wrapped in onionskin pages from the Book of Revelation; the biggest drag in my life wouldn&#8217;t always be something so simple as an eight-hour dishwashing shift. Things would only get worse, and &#8220;1979&#8243; made me begin to miss what had yet to happen. I&#8217;ve heard that it had the same effect on people who, at that time, really had a right to miss 1979. Somewhere out there, there&#8217;s probably a fourteen-year-old kid, wearing whatever passes as rebellious these days, who gets a funny feeling from  The Pains&#8217; &#8220;Strange.&#8221; And then there&#8217;s me, and the rest of my people (wherever they may be), who are listening to the same song on their way to a dismally unfulfilling job, and finally we have a right to feel nostalgic. &#8220;Strange&#8221; makes me feel the way &#8220;1979&#8243;—still one of my favorite songs ever—used to, except now, I&#8217;ve earned it.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">I remember when everyone traded in their Chucks for the same pair of Nike hiking boots. When everyone ditched their Docs for Adidas sandals worn around the house, over white socks. I remember when a friend of mine stopped wearing shirts that had sleeves too short to cover her tattoos. &#8220;Don&#8217;t say the hour&#8217;s growing late/ Don&#8217;t say we should be going straight/ &#8216;Cos I can tell you&#8217;re strange like me,&#8221; Berman sings. I may have outgrown my leather pants and lipstick, but I do miss the ability to pick my people out of a crowd. Sometimes, I&#8217;ll look around at the bar I&#8217;m tending and wonder, &#8220;Is she like me? What about her?&#8221; &#8220;Strange&#8221; is about the bliss in knowing who belongs where, but it&#8217;s equally about knowing that any assumption that this is a permanent state is a hopeless one. </span></td>
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<p><span style="font-size: small;">Even without lyrics, the title track from their &#8217;11 LP <em>Life Fantastic</em> sounds ominous, wicked. Musically, I&#8217;m reminded of The Doors&#8217; darker moments if they&#8217;d had better audio fidelity.; vocally, I&#8217;m spurred to think of a less gravelly and emphysematic Tom Waits. Singer Honus Honus&#8217; delivery reminds me of a less unhinged and lispy Isaac Brock (and I mustn&#8217;t be the only one to make this connection, as Man Man have toured in support of Modest Mouse). But despite all the other aural delights, the lyrics still improve the ordeal. &#8220;I&#8217;m like a corpse in plastic/ You find while at a picnic/ When you&#8217;re just there to kick it/ Now you have to call the police/ And report somethin&#8217; wicked,&#8221; &#8220;Fantastic&#8221; begins; a fairly eloquent metaphor for the exigencies of existence, i.e.: Life is what happens while you&#8217;re making other plans, &amp;c. The track continues, &#8220;The scene, it turns so grisly/ And the children, they are crying/ You hand them black umbrellas/ Tell &#8216;em that the world is dying.&#8221; </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">The song&#8217;s perky piano seems trepidatious in the choruses and somewhat resigned throughout the verse sections in the face of the discordant string section&#8217;s punctuative passages, which sounds like sighing. The explosive drum barrage near the song&#8217;s end reflects that wicked, grisly panic of which the lyrics speak, and the song&#8217;s return to verse form in the end, underscored by delicate flute chirping, as Honus repeats the two words &#8220;life&#8221; and &#8220;fantastic,&#8221; makes one wonder about the phrase. Is it totally sarcastic? &#8220;Life? <em>Fantastic</em>.&#8221; Or is it sincere, appreciative of the often seemingly unfortunate circumstances of the world. &#8220;Life? Fantastic!&#8221; The bridge between the first and second verses makes the distinction more ambiguous. &#8220;It&#8217;s how you dress your scars/ And let them breathe,&#8221; Honus explains, but it&#8217;s unclear if this explication of the human condition is a lamentation.</span></td>
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<p><span style="font-size: small;">I wonder sometimes if I would feel the same way about Nine Inch Nails&#8217; &#8220;Closer&#8221; if I&#8217;d never seen Mark Romanek&#8217;s <a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PTFwQP86BRs&amp;feature=related" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=swf;width=640;height=385;" target="_blank">sublime video</a> for the radio edit of the song (one of only two music videos permanently enshrined in the Museum of Modern Art). Yes, I&#8217;d heard and enjoyed the song before I saw the video, but somehow, the two have become inextricably linked in my head. The song sounds to me like the sepia-toned grimy imagery. The first time I heard the curiously spelled &#8220;Ffunny Ffrends,&#8221; I was staring at the improbable object on the LPs cover, <a href="http://i955.photobucket.com/albums/ae39/JRTStarlight/Topological.gif" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" target="_blank">trying to the point of debilitating headache</a> to figure out what the hell it was (nerd points if you know what that linked image is from). The music, perhaps, became inextricably linked with this not unpleasant, but complete confusion.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">The only lyric I can make out completely is &#8220;Would you care if I die?&#8221; and that&#8217;s probably because I was told it was in there; the chorus <em>might</em> be &#8220;I&#8217;ve lied all of my life/ All of my life/ For my funny friend.&#8221;  And that&#8217;s all I&#8217;ve got. Usually, I&#8217;m steered more towards love of a song by articulate lyrics, but sometimes the opposite happens—music is a bi-hemispheric process, anyways. And the persistent beat is a great one; coupled with the fuzzy bass, the song seems to have a good but of groove going on. The repeated guitar melody is preposterously catchy. The way the (male!) vocalist&#8217;s decidedly effeminate voice wraps like a vine around that guitar lick is irresistible. With all the fuzz (and what are arguably similar debut LP covers), there will definitely be some comparison to Sleigh Bells. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Overall, the song, beginning with that moribund question, seems less like an artifact from the sky than it does a found and warped home videotape from a year before you were born featuring your mother and her brother arguing about something. Your mother ends up crying, but because you can&#8217;t make out the words, you don&#8217;t know why.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Burst.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Burst"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2090" title="Burst" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Burst-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>12. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/mMBJN4" target="_blank">I Don&#8217;t Want Love</a>,&#8221; The Antlers</strong>: I might argue that almost all of The Antlers <em>Burst Apart </em>is about not wanting to bother with any of the elements of romantic relationships anymore. This is certainly true of at least five of its ten songs, probably true of its instrumental number (which Peter Silberman describes as being &#8220;about that moment when you realize you&#8217;re completely lost&#8221;), and debatably true of three of its other numbers. It&#8217;s definitely the case with its clearly titled opener, &#8220;I Don&#8217;t Want Love.&#8221; </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Sure, Weezer&#8217;s <em>Pinkerton</em> opens with the song &#8220;Tired of Sex,&#8221; but that song, in reality, is more about annoyance with the meaningless groupie fucking Rivers Cuomo had probably gotten used to. &#8220;I Don&#8217;t Want Love,&#8221; in the context of the album, seems to be about more than that. &#8220;If I leave before you,&#8221; Silberman sings, &#8220;And I walk out alone/ Keep your hands to yourself/ When you follow me home.&#8221; The sentiment seems to be less, &#8220;Why can&#8217;t I have a fulfilling relationship based on love?&#8221; (<em>a la</em> Weezer) and more &#8220;Just leave me alone.&#8221; Indeed, the next line is plain: &#8220;I don&#8217;t want love.&#8221; And maybe because of the year I&#8217;ve personally had, I find that to be an exceptionally refreshing statement. I was joking around with a coworker, designing a line of dismotivational posters—Suicide: Because, statistically speaking, you&#8217;re probably insignificant, will make no contribution to the world, and if it makes no difference whether you live or die, why bother with all the bullshit?—when I blurted out one I didn&#8217;t really consider before I said it. &#8220;Sex: Generally a disappointment, but if you&#8217;re not always chasing it, your friends will think you&#8217;re either pathetic or gay.&#8221; To my surprise, this met with approval. At the moment, <em>I </em>don&#8217;t feel like chasing tail. And I don&#8217;t really want love. <em>Burst Apart</em>, it would seem, is finally the album for people like me. I <em>don&#8217;t</em> want love. And there are enough love songs out there as it is. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Besides all of that, it doesn&#8217;t hurt that the song is a gorgeous number, well-delivered by Silberman&#8217;s falsetto which is, just behind the lyrics, the selling point of the piece. The lines &#8220;We wake up with pounding heads/ Bruised down below/ I should have built better walls/ Or slept in my clothes&#8221; wouldn&#8217;t have the same effect if growled sung monotonously by [shudder] Matt Derninger of indie darlings The National. Silberman&#8217;s vocals convey both delicacy and intensity. The more shoegazey elements of <em>Hospice</em>-era Antlers seem to have vanished, but what remains is something more than boiler-plate indie rock. A white noise of synth provides a subtle but stellar palette on which the song builds. And its climax comes with the final phrase of this delicious invective, &#8220;If I see you again/ Desperate and stoned/ Keep your prison locked up/ And I will leave my gun at home.&#8221; <em>Burst Apart </em>seems to be an album about withdrawing. Not in a self-destructive, <em>Downward Spiral</em> kind of way, but instead about wanting, at least for a while, to be uncomplicatedly uninvolved. And frankly, I don&#8217;t really trust anyone who hasn&#8217;t at some point felt this way.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Limbs.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Limbs"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2091" title="Limbs" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Limbs-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>11. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/mPs280" target="_blank">Bloom</a>,&#8221; Radiohead</strong>: As I wrote in my review of the full album, “Bloom” is fascinating. A colleague of mine got baked the other day and listened to <em>The King of Limbs</em> for the first time (for the record, and none of which is meant derogatorily): I didn&#8217;t even know he was any sort of Radiohead fan, his definition of Excellent Music will involve the name John Mayer more than once, and this Lp-spinning may have been at his girlfriend&#8217;s insistence), and when he told me about it, his response was more or less, &#8220;What the hell was that mess?&#8221; I wanted to sternly correct him, but that was my first impression of &#8220;Bloom,&#8221; too. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">&#8220;Bloom&#8221; makes great use of dissonance and subversion. The speedy opening strings don’t seem to mesh quite correctly with either the drum &amp; bass-style looped percussion, or the repeating keyboard pulsations. The persistent ringing, like someone who won&#8217;t quit running a wet finger around the lip of a wine glass, doesn&#8217;t help. And I can&#8217;t even begin to guess at the time signatures here. Something most definitely feels off. The first time I heard the song, it felt sloppy and haphazard—especially when what sounds like upright bass kicks in, playing a groove that seems to belong to an entirely different song. Yorke’s vocals, when they commence, are strangely delivered (and, I&#8217;ve found, hard to sing). I was getting dressed for work and, though I&#8217;d usually prefer to pay exclusive attention to such an eagerly awaited LP, I was too excited to hear it, while also running late. Regardless, my response was indeed, &#8220;What the hell is this mess?&#8221;</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">But after a few listens, it becomes clear that the song is not a gyroscope about to spin out of control; in fact, the song feels like <em>very well-controlled </em>chaos. “Bloom” seems to me the closest Radiohead’s ever come to approximating the aesthetic for which Nine Inch Nails is best known—Reznor’s project is built on loops, dissonance, and the sound of things about to fall apart. “Bloom” seems simultaneously aggressive and fragile—the repeated lyric “turning in somersaults” sums it up well. And the occasional horns which drift in and out (because horns are, as I said, permitted again in 2011) make &#8220;Bloom&#8221; feel connected to the era of black and white films, where sad, dim streets are fogged by dry ice, and broken men wander aimlessly, alone. If this list were about musical technique alone, &#8220;Bloom&#8221; might actually take the day.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">The song&#8217;s cryptic lyrics are an excellent introduction to <a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/king-of-limbs" target="_blank">what I maintain is a concept record</a> more or less about why suicide sometimes seems like the better decision. &#8220;So why does this still hurt?&#8221; Yorke asks, then answers himself by saying, advising others like him, &#8220;Don&#8217;t blow your mind with why.&#8221;</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Whokill.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Whokill"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2092" title="Whokill" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Whokill-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>10. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/luA2vj" target="_blank">Powa</a>,&#8221; Tune-Yards</strong>: Tune-Yards&#8217; 2009 <em>Bird Brains</em> earned a 5/5-star rating from me, and one of the most delightful things about that album is its mythology. Merril Garbus recorded the whole thing herself using Audacity, a program I have on my own Mac. Theoretically, I am properly equipped to cobble together an album of that quality, though of course I&#8217;m unable. Something about that is remarkable. But it&#8217;s not just the story about that album that makes it great, track by track there&#8217;s not a miss on the disc. I was intrigued to find that she&#8217;d so quickly followed up the LP with something else, and equally worried that having at her disposal a wider array of resources might ruin things. I needn&#8217;t have been. <em>Whokill</em> sounds like nothing else in my collection, except maybe <em>Bird Brains. </em> </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">At the center of that album, however, is its least idiosyncratic song, but nevertheless its most appealing. &#8220;Powa&#8221; is a &#8217;50s-style jam that proves on a different level the same thing <em>Whokill </em>proved as an LP. Essentially endless resources didn&#8217;t make Tune-Yards any less remarkable; working within conventional song structure and with conventional instruments doesn&#8217;t make Garbus any less impressive. The vocal performance on this track is nothing short of remarkable. In its introduction, Garbus sounds like a twee pixie; when she sings &#8220;Lightning dances in my head/ Devil, devil, whoa/ Burning steady as a motor/ Not a pebble, pebble, whoa/ Baby, bring me home to bed/ I need you to press me down before my body flies away from me,&#8221; its hard to believe she&#8217;s not a woman plucked straight from a Harlem church choir; just before the outro, she hits an extended high-C in the style of early Mariah Carey (except, you know, not annoying). </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">The lyrics, in keeping with the album&#8217;s themes of internal conflict, gender roles, and body image, include a couple of exciting turns of phrase. The aforementioned, &#8220;Baby, bring me home to bed/ I need you to press me down before my body flies away from me,&#8221; is one example; more provocative is, &#8220;Mirror, mirror on the wall/ Can you see my face at all?/ My man likes me from behind/ Tell the truth I never mind/ &#8216;Cos you bomb me with lies, humiliations everyday/ You bomb me so many times I never find my way.&#8221; The song as a whole appears to be about the occasional giving in to the comfort we find in the places we&#8217;ve all been programmed, by a lifetime of media saturation, to find comfort. &#8220;Your power inside/ It rocks me like a lullaby,&#8221; she sings. In my last relationship, would it have always been the best decision for me to watch <em>Americas Next Top Model</em> with my girlfriend? Yes. Did I sometimes just say &#8220;Fuck it,&#8221; and stay late at work to watch baseball while drinking liquor? You bet. Did it feel good? Absolutely. &#8220;Hey, honey, wait/ I&#8217;m a rebel, rebel,&#8221; Garbus sings at the song&#8217;s beginning. &#8220;Powa&#8221; is about the ways in which people who know better end up rebelling: By <em>not</em> rebelling.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Dead.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Dead"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2093" title="Dead" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Dead-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>09. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/lrEomZ" target="_blank">Don&#8217;t Carry It All</a>,&#8221; The Decemberists</strong>: The Decemberists held the title of My Favorite Band from 2005-2008 (when I discovered Deerhunter), so I always expect their new LPs to be something revelatory. Oddly, it took me two years to really get into 2006&#8242;s <em>Crane Wife</em> and, because I despise the legitimate theatre and, by extension, rock operas, I don&#8217;t expect to ever enjoy <em>The Hazards of Love</em> (though &#8220;The Rake&#8217;s Song&#8221; is actually up there on my list of Top Decemberists Tracks). Perhaps it shouldn&#8217;t have come as a surprise to me, then, that I didn&#8217;t enjoy <em>The King Is Dead</em> for a long and disappointing month. It wasn&#8217;t until <a href="http://www.thesobriquets.com/bio.html" target="_blank">a friend of mine</a> read my list of favored tracks and explained to me that what I&#8217;d always adored about the Decemberists were the elements of British folk, which is why I felt <em>The King Is Dead </em>was such a disappointing departure: It&#8217;s <em>American</em> folk. Hell, the title of the LP tips its hand. Once that distinction was made, I changed the way I was listening to it and, lo, <em>King</em> became one of my favorite releases of the year. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">&#8220;Don&#8217;t Carry It All&#8221; is a killer opening track that smacks of alt-country and other traditional Americana. Prominent harmonica is featured, fiddles play in the background, tambourines rattle. But Colin Meloy&#8217;s vocals are intertwined with Gillian Welch&#8217;s giving the song an exceptionally pastoral feel. And, if I&#8217;m not mistaken, the bass here (and on the record in general) is more prominent than it&#8217;s ever been with the band. &#8220;Let the yoke fall from our shoulders/ Don&#8217;t carry it all, don&#8217;t carry it all,&#8221; Meloy sings in the chorus. And all in all, the song feels like the band has shed the weight of pretense (the song only contains one word I had to look up and it&#8217;s the proper name of a flower) and just decided to <em>play</em>. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Though nowhere nearly as good as Radiohead&#8217;s <em>In Rainbows</em>, <em>King </em>feels to me like the same sort of endeavor. I&#8217;ve never found The Decemberists pretentious, but there&#8217;s no doubt that the twelve-minute prog-rock of &#8220;The Island,&#8221; from <em>The Crane Wife </em>was carefully calculated to achieve a certain epic, intimidating effect. And <em>The Hazards of Love </em>was quite the affair of pomp, indeed. Radiohead released a series of records that were designed to be innovative, calculated to impress, which is why <em>Rainbows </em>felt like such a breath of fresh air: It was just the sound of five guys playing music they felt like playing. &#8220;Don&#8217;t Carry It All&#8221; embodies this same spirit more than any other single song on the record. Every time I listen to it, I feel like I&#8217;ve just watched a friend bounce back from a nasty divorce because &#8220;Don&#8217;t Carry It All&#8221; positively drips with the enthusiasm of relief. </span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Kaputt.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Kaputt"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2094" title="Kaputt" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Kaputt-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>08. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/iK0MpZ" target="_blank">Chinatown</a>,&#8221; Destroyer</strong>: Aside from last year&#8217;s Ariel Pink record, Destroyer&#8217;s <em>Kaputt</em> is the best example of the Steely Danification of contemporary indie rock. Jazz arrangements, saxophone solos and, hell, whole horn sections are no longer verboten. In the world of indie rock, there&#8217;s always been an incredibly irritating distinction between cool-uncool and uncool-uncool. Cool-uncool is drinking Pabst Blue Ribbon because it&#8217;s lowbrow and uncool to do so. Uncool-uncool is drinking Bud Light because it&#8217;s lowbrow and uncool to do so. And until recently, it ways uncool-uncool to suggest sax be prominently featured on your next record and, for that matter, to remember that the soprano sax even exists. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">&#8220;Chinatown&#8221; feels like 1984. I havew a few snatches of memory from that year of my life (my fourth), and they all involve walking down the avocado-colored carpet at the mall, looking at the chocolate- and  pumpkin-colored store facades, smelling the ubiquitous ashtrays, and listening to songs that sound vaguely like &#8220;Chinatown.&#8221; There may or may not be half a dozen keyboards playing at once; a guitar is present, but takes the backseat; and clear vocals are slurred by someone who might be wine-drunk. Brass floats in and out of the song like cigarette smoke and, for a few bars, the song becomes a male-female duet. The bass feels incidental; the song is entirely treble driven. This is more or less how I recall all music sounding until about 1988, when everything suddenly sounded like Guns &#8216;N&#8217; Roses or Bon Jovi. And it&#8217;s not at all unpleasant.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">&#8220;Chinatown,&#8221; no matter what else it might be called (a derivative rip-off, for instance), is undeniably smooth. &#8220;Chinatown,&#8221; unlike all the nocturnal records of 2011, is sunset music. It&#8217;s driving-a-convertible-at-sunset-music. Just having it in the background makes you feel 10% sexier. Having &#8220;Chinatown&#8221; on in the background makes you feel like you can dance, and like you absolutely must unbutton one more button of your top. Smooth. So smooth that I don&#8217;t care how abstruse the lyrics are. Bejar mumbles, &#8220;The wind and the rain/ To your detriment you try to explain/ A government swallowed up in the squall/ I can&#8217;t walk away at all in Chinatown.&#8221; I don&#8217;t know what that means. But thanks to the slickness of its delivery and the music in which the line floats, I don&#8217;t really care.</span></td>
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<p><span style="font-size: small;">The entirety of Blake&#8217;s self-titled LP is a lot like getting good and high. Some of it is confusing and offputting; some of it is confusing and wonderful. A number of songs almost made this list—&#8221;Unluck,&#8221; &#8220;The Wilhelm Scream,&#8221; &#8220;Limit to Your Love,&#8221; &#8220;To Care&#8221;—but in the end, I decided the &#8220;Lindisfarne&#8221; suite (broken into Part I &amp; Part II on the LP) embodies every excellent quality of the record all at once.  It&#8217;s disorienting. Part I is <em>a capella</em> and mostly spoken word with very few of the oddly spaced fragmented phrases sung. The single element of &#8220;music&#8221; that appears is more or less the sound effect made famous by William Shatner&#8217;s performance of &#8220;Rocket Man&#8221; (<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DvQwXOCKNLY&amp;feature=related" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=swf;width=640;height=385;" target="_blank">about 1:03 in</a>). Those vocals, by the way, are almost irrecognizably computer altered; Blake takes the popular abuse of auto-tune so far that it becomes an art—he&#8217;s the fucking Jackson Pollock of auto-tune. Once you decipher the words, they don&#8217;t make a whole lot of sense as sentences, but as small parcels of information, they&#8217;re quite vivid. &#8220;Looking farther than I can see&#8230;She&#8217;ll take a shining to me,&#8221; Blake semi-sings. &#8220;Won&#8217;t tomorrow come?&#8221; he asks. This part of the song is 2:43 and seems much longer if A) you don&#8217;t know that and B) if you can&#8217;t see the timer. I had acid trips where I perceived the entire world like this. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Part I is connected to Part II by the shared lyric &#8220;Beacon, don&#8217;t fly too high,&#8221; which is strangely charged with emotion, despite the fact that you have to do a lot of projecting to make that sentiment make sense. And when Part I finally gives way to the sad, gentle melody and mechanized drum pulse of Part II, those spoken and computer-garbled vocals become clear strains: The one jumbled digital mess becomes five James Blakes, all in different auto-tuned tones, but finally grounded by an incredibly delicate, unaltered human element—James Blake. &#8220;Cute, but I&#8217;ll take the bus/ With fees and favours gone/ Cracks in savers pass/ And a white that sometimes shone.&#8221; Blake&#8217;s lyrics are, again, mostly inscrutable, but they&#8217;re delivered in such a way as to seem both melancholy and relaxed—&#8221;sad, but chill&#8221; is the most succinct explication of &#8220;Lindisfarne&#8221; (which is, for the record, an English isle with less than 200 inhabitants) I&#8217;ve ever delivered. And I had immobile spells I spent whacked on Vicodin where the whole world felt just like this. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">There&#8217;s a scene in Charlie Kaufman&#8217;s <em>Adaptation</em> where a Native American, who may or may not be stoned, caresses protagonist Susan Orlean&#8217;s face and says, &#8220;I can see your sadness. It&#8217;s lovely.&#8221; On &#8220;Lindisfarne,&#8221; I can hear Blake&#8217;s. And it is. Lovely.</span></td>
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<p><span style="font-size: small;">&#8220;Confetti&#8221; is dance goth. The completely sour synth notes that twinkle as the song opens are almost wince-provoking, but actually quite delicious. Equally tasty is the simple, echoing guitar riff that introduces the song before dropping out completely, deferring to multiple synth lines layered in a way that&#8217;s somewhat reminiscent of &#8220;Ringfinger,&#8221; from &#8217;89&#8242;s <em>Pretty Hate Machine. </em>Front to back, the track is simultaneously upbeat and disappointed-sounding, and post-vocals, there&#8217;s a certain synth line that vaguely resembles a human voice that gives the music a resigned and hopeless feeling (while still never becoming undanceable—thanks to Trent Reznor for twenty years of lessons on just how to do that). All of this perfectly underscores the song&#8217;s lyrical component.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">The song&#8217;s first line—&#8221;Waiting for the stars to align/ There is a restless rain cloud in my mind&#8221;— couldn&#8217;t be much gothier without the words &#8220;crying,&#8221; &#8220;eyeliner,&#8221; and &#8220;clove cigarette,&#8221; being bandied about. But mastermind Wesley Eisold&#8217;s lyrics never come off as limp or cheesy; they are, in fact, one of the song&#8217;s best features. &#8220;I feel guilty being alive/ When so many beautiful people have died,&#8221; he sings. And it becomes clear to me why it is I like this song: It&#8217;s about the condition of the reluctant villain. Our cultural stories make much of the reluctant hero, hesitant about embracing his destiny (ahem, Mr. Potter). But we rarely consider how discomfiting it is to be considered a villain. There&#8217;s rightly no pity lost on Hitlers and Genghis Khans, but what about those folks unjustly suspected of everyday betrayals? Some of us, myself definitely included, seem to draw from others expectations of the worst. People, on more than one occasion, have actually been surprised when our first interaction involves me being nice and, when they tell me so, they don&#8217;t understand why it is I look a little upset. If before we&#8217;ve interacted in any way, folks assume I&#8217;m a monster, well, that&#8217;s rather unpleasant to know. &#8221;Confetti&#8221; explains why all the bad guys in every toy line always had cooler costumes, and why the ensembles of the depressed goth crowd are always more interestingly put together than the Tommy- &amp; Ralph-clad folks who&#8217;ve never been considered misfits: &#8220;It&#8217;s important that evil people look good on the outside,&#8221; Eisold sings. This is because &#8220;evil&#8221; people feel so bloody awful on the inside. Indeed, restless rainclouds lurk inside their minds. In this vein, Eisold continues, &#8220;I may never get it right/ My chemicals, they balance in some other light.&#8221;</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">In the chorus, he muses, &#8220;I never thought that we wouldn&#8217;t rule the world/ I always think we will/ I keep my teeth gnashed still.&#8221; Maybe this is one of those you-had-to-be-there kind of things but, when one is always suspected of the worst and deemed &#8220;evil,&#8221; it seems only fair that one actually get to reap the rewards that the villains of our cultural mythology always do (at least for a while). There&#8217;s a line spoken by Abbé Faria in the 2002 remake of <em>The Count of Monte Cristo</em>: &#8220;Do not commit the crime for which you now serve the sentence.&#8221; But if that sentence is a life sentence, I have to ask, &#8220;Why not?&#8221; If I&#8217;m always to be automatically considered a villain <em>no matter what I do</em>, I might as well just go for world domination.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Critical Breakdown for Other Nerds: &#8220;Confetti&#8221; is the song Severus Snape would have sung before he was ever actually a Death Eater, when he was just a kid, of whom people expected the worst.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Tomboy.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Tomboy"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2097" title="Tomboy" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Tomboy-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>05. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/lMKUin" target="_blank">Slow Motion</a>,&#8221; Panda Bear</strong>: A version of this song was released last autumn on a limited edition 7&#8243;. I liked it fine. When the whole LP was released earlier this year, I found it exceptional as I expected, and &#8220;Slow Motion&#8221; stood out as the most dramatic of its tracks. I was pleasantly surprised to find, however, that the LP version of the song had been slightly embellished and better produced. The result: A superlative, hypnotic jam. The most noticeable difference is a sound that explodes just after the first cluster of drumbeats—something like taking a hammer to an electrified piece of sheet metal sitting a foot underwater (listen to the song: I&#8217;m not crazy). The noise reverberates and adds a perfect sort of punctuation that the 7&#8243;version of the track lacked. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Noah Lennox (Panda Bear) has always been excellent at turning noise into music, but he does so in a way that&#8217;s different from other auteurs who&#8217;ve made their name doing the same (Aphex Twin, Squarepusher, Autechre, Nine Inch Nails). <em>Tomboy</em>, as a whole, lacks a lot of the layers of not-necessarily-musical noises that Lennox&#8217;s 2007 effort—the impeccable, but sometimes borderline inaccessible <em>Person Pitch</em>—was defined by. Typical of the 2011 LP, &#8221;Slow Motion&#8221; is a huge step in the direction of traditional pop structure. Despite seeming almost completely accessible, if one really pays attention to the track, there remains an astonishing amount of not-necessarily-musical noise in the mix. And though it&#8217;s less prominent than the layered noise on, say, &#8220;Bros,&#8221; it&#8217;s still essential to the song. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Lennox said he wanted the songs on <em>Tomboy</em> to focus on rhythm and he certainly succeeded with &#8220;Slow Motion.&#8221; There&#8217;s an completely compelling rhythm to every element of the song, from the repeated piano chords and drumbeats to the vocals—vocals structured in an almost litany-like fashion. The verses make excellent use of parallel sentence structure; the bridges make excellent use of repetition to the point that they sound incantatory (&#8220;Everyone knows what they always say,&#8221; repeated eight times in quick succession). It&#8217;s a testament to the craftsmanship behind this track that, for all its parallelism and repetition, it never gets boring, only disorienting. As with James Blake, if you&#8217;re too old to get high, but you miss the experience, you could do worse than spending some time with &#8220;Slow Motion&#8221; (and the rest of the record as a whole). Singing along can leave one feeling, well, a little out of it, by the end of the song. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">And it can&#8217;t be overlooked that the song&#8217;s lyrics are, in fact, themselves excellent, though simple. &#8220;So they say &#8216;practice makes you perfect&#8217;/ So they say &#8216;you can&#8217;t teach an old dog&#8217;/ So they say &#8216;have an apple a day&#8217;/ So they say &#8216;better safe than sorry,&#8217;&#8221; Lennox intones, and the perpetual echo of his words only adds to the mesmerically rhythmic structure of the song. What could, I suppose, be called the song&#8217;s chorus is a pithy enough insight: &#8220;And when I slow it down/ It&#8217;s clear just how/ It&#8217;s what they don&#8217;t say/ That&#8217;s what counts.&#8221; A lot of attention has been paid to Panda Bear&#8217;s ability to create music that gives one pause because of its sonic innovation. Because of this, it&#8217;s often overlooked how excellent his lyrics can be. &#8220;Slow Motion,&#8221; simple as it is, is no exception.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Kiss.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Kiss"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2098" title="Kiss" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Kiss-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>04. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/kqZzbb" target="_blank">Your Fake Name Is Good Enough for Me</a>,&#8221; Iron &amp; Wine</strong>: I remember a <em>Rolling Stone</em> review of Marilyn Manson&#8217;s 2007 LP <em>Eat Me, Drink Me</em> that mocked the singer for claiming its opening track, &#8220;If I Was Your Vampire,&#8221; was &#8220;epic.&#8221; The quip was something along the lines of &#8220;Since when is six minutes epic?&#8221; And though I&#8217;m always hesitant to use the word since, like so many things, it&#8217;s been ruined by the indie rock hipster crowd, Iron &amp; Wine&#8217;s &#8220;Your Fake Name Is Good Enough for Me&#8221; is epic. It clocks in at 7:01, but it ain&#8217;t just the extra minute that makes this song worthy of the term. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Yet another example of the resurgence of sax, &#8220;Fake Name&#8221; opens up as a jazzy number that wouldn&#8217;t have seemed too out of place on 2007&#8242;s 5/5-star masterpiece <em>The Shepherd&#8217;s Dog</em>. Sam Beam delivers two verses quickly, each ending with a mysterious refrain &#8220;They were singing something/ Maybe they were singing:/ &#8216;Become the weeds, we will become/ Become the sea, we will become&#8217;.&#8221; There&#8217;s time for a quick guitar solo he then spits a third verse that makes good use of the album&#8217;s title (which pleases me, because I&#8217;m always disappointed by albums with killer titles that, in context, are flat): &#8220;Bet you&#8217;re watching all the happy kids/ Kiss each other clean/ They were singing something/ Maybe they were singing.&#8221; A second brass-backed guitar solo opens up and then stops abruptly, and the song, at 2:43, <em>really</em> gets going.</span></p>
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<p><span style="font-size: small;">Beam spends the next four-and-a-quarter minutes completing that curious song that those happy kids were singing, and he does so in a parallel fashion that&#8217;s quite different from Panda Bear&#8217;s &#8220;Slow Motion,&#8221; but equally effective and hypnotic. &#8220;Become the rising sun/ We will become, become/ Become the damage done/ We will become, become,&#8221; it begins. Some of the more intriguing and exciting enumerations in the list: &#8220;Become the love we made&#8230;/ Become your forgotten name&#8230;/ Become the bandage and the blade&#8230;/ Become the caress and the claw&#8230;/ Become their crooked words&#8230;/ Become, but it could be worse.&#8221; Testament to the momentum this list gains as it proceeds is how hard it is to pay attention to the instrumental jam going on in the background: By the time the list comes to its climax, sax is wailing discordantly, a drumkit a rumbling, its cymbals crashing, and an electric guitar is fizzing. But Beam is so charged with emotion that his voice demands complete attention, and its excitement is contagious. I think it&#8217;s functionally impossible not to want to sing along by that point and, if you happen to be doing so and also make it through the list, by its end, you&#8217;ll find yourself fairly screaming.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">&#8220;Become both now and then/ We will become, become/ Become again and again/ We will become, become,&#8221; the lyrics conclude and, just moments after they do, the drums quit, the guitar vanishes, the sax plays a few wilting notes, and your speakers go silent. The first time I listened to this song (reading the LP&#8217;s lyric sheet and already dying to sing along) is that that quiet is something like the static that follows Jim Carrey&#8217;s departure from the set at the end of <em>The Truman Show</em>. People have been obsessively watching Truman&#8217;s life unfold for thirty-some years and, once he leaves, there&#8217;s a tremendous void. And I&#8217;ve yet to find a song I can play immediately after &#8220;Fake Name&#8221; that doesn&#8217;t seem woefully inadequate, and as comedic as that movie&#8217;s final line, spoken by a security guard staring at a now blank monitor: &#8220;What else is on?&#8221;</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Limbs.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Limbs"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2091" title="Limbs" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Limbs-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>03. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/mn6KSr" target="_blank">Give Up the Ghost</a>,&#8221; Radiohead</strong>: &#8220;Give Up the Ghost&#8221; is essentially the complete opposite of &#8220;Bloom,&#8221; number eleven on this list, and that&#8217;s the reason it ends up here at number three. Where &#8220;Bloom&#8221; was a complexly executed and enigmatic affair, &#8220;Ghost&#8221; is raw and immediate. Unadorned. In fact, &#8220;Ghost&#8221; is by yards the most naked Radiohead&#8217;s ever been—perhaps in a sort of competition with &#8220;No Surprises,&#8221; but beating out any other by-contrast-quite-busy song in their oeuvre: &#8220;Bulletproof,&#8221; &#8220;Street Spirit,&#8221; &#8220;Exit Music,&#8221; &#8220;Motion Picture Soundtrack,&#8221; &#8220;Pyramid Song,&#8221; &#8220;I Will,&#8221; &#8220;Reckoner,&#8221; &amp;c. I&#8217;d also argue that &#8220;Give Up the Ghost&#8221; is the most dejected, depressed number in the Radiohead catalogue, beating out even the bleak sentiment expressed in &#8220;No Surprises&#8221;: &#8220;I&#8217;ll take the quiet life/ I&#8217;ll take the carbon monoxide.&#8221; </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Upon its release, a number of people complained about <em>Limbs&#8217; </em>lack of melodies. Between the preceding “Codex” and &#8220;Give Up the Ghost,&#8221; it appears that where the album is most strongly melodic, it’s also the most miserable. I’m forced by this to recall a nugget of “wisdom” once offered me: everything sad is beautiful. But for a number of reasons, &#8221;Ghost&#8221; stands in stark contrast to the rest of <em>Limbs</em>: the LPs first half is vitriolic and frenetic, &#8220;Lotus Flower&#8221; is slick and processed, &#8220;Codex&#8221;—despite its subject matter—is fairly lush and beautiful, and &#8220;Separator,&#8221; which follows the decidedly suicidal &#8220;Ghost,&#8221; is upbeat and optimistic. And though the song does benefit some from its context—2011 has seen a number of LPs that are best considered as whole performances with several movements and not shuffled into playlists—it stands alone just fine.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Thom Yorke&#8217;s simple request, &#8220;Don&#8217;t hurt me,&#8221; begins the song. It&#8217;s whimpered over looped chirping of birds—looped birdsong: something normally pleasant gone mechanical, uninteresting—and a drum pulse that calls to mind a heartbeat. That request is repeated until song&#8217;s end and, not despite, but <em>because</em> of its plainness, it&#8217;s heartbreaking. Most of the rest of the song, musically, consists of a very little that goes a long way. Gently plucked acoustic guitar. A simple time-keeping (heart)beat, made by patting the hollow front of that acoustic guitar. A certain noise that trails with increasing frequency and volume from Yorke&#8217;s words; this noise sounds sometimes like a flat blast of brass, and sometimes like a stretched-out echo of the words from which it protrudes—based on the fact that the body of this song is Yorke singing over a number of his own vocal takes, I&#8217;m inclined to believe the latter. About a minute from the end, a small sample of strings begins to loop in time with that brass/voice noise. The song concludes with what sounds like the flapping of mechanical wings—as if those cheerfully chirping birds present at the beginning are on their way out.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Lyrically, the song is equally simple, but no less beautiful for it. &#8220;Gather up the lost and sold, &#8221; Yorke sings. &#8220;Gather up the pitiful.&#8221; The last line of the song&#8217;s &#8220;body&#8221; is as direct as it gets: &#8220;I think I should give up the ghost.&#8221; A song about resignation, &#8220;Ghost&#8221; also stands in contrast to much of the rest of 2011&#8242;s music: Where other records are unabashedly nocturnal, &#8220;Give Up the Ghost&#8221; seems to be what misery sounds like in the daytime. And daylight misery is always worse, lonelier, because when one is miserable at night, there&#8217;s at least the illusion that all of nature is sympathizing.</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Burst.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Burst"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2090" title="Burst" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Burst-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>02. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/iFYrJc" target="_blank">Parentheses</a>,&#8221; The Antlers</strong>: As discussed above, The Antlers put out a record about wanting nothing less than romantic entanglement and nowhere is it less ambiguous than in this song. Opening with an eerie piano strike and built upon a warped percussion loop, &#8220;Parentheses&#8221; (which, yes, gets points from me for not only mentioning punctuation, but using it in an interesting symbolic way) is one of the best representatives of that strain of nocturnal music I&#8217;ve discussed. Every musical element of the song—the crawling bass, the white noise, the sour samples (and echoes thereof), and the aggressively distorted guitar—adds to the isolate midnight ambiance it creates. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">When Silberman&#8217;s falsetto enters the mix, it feels positively ghostly. The imagery of an entire relationship contained within the brackets of a lover&#8217;s splayed thighs is so fantastic that I have trouble believing no one&#8217;s thought of it before, though I can&#8217;t find reference to it anywhere, and I&#8217;ve Googled. And the terminal viciousness of the statement &#8220;Close up your knees/ And I&#8217;ll close your parentheses&#8221; is, at least this year, unparalleled. </span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">But the rest of the lyrics, making apparent reference to the sort of casual post-breakup sex that always means more to one party than it does the other (&#8220;I&#8217;m a bad absentee/ You know when I want to leave&#8221;), are nearly as well-wrought. &#8221;One broken wing/ Soaring and suffering/ Arm in a sling/ I don&#8217;t owe you anything&#8221; is a clever encapsulation of the exasperated feeling I imagine I can&#8217;t be alone in having had when, after breaking someone&#8217;s heart (never a fun thing to do, no matter how badly it needs to be done, and how much better off that other person will be in the end), that person keeps trying to lure you back in with sex: You feel bad not comforting them, especially if you still care, but continuing the entanglement won&#8217;t solve anyone&#8217;s dilemma. That is to say, in this situation, I&#8217;ve at times wanted to scream, &#8220;Just because I hurt you doesn&#8217;t mean I should be the one who has to fix it!&#8221; Silberman, however, has phrased it much more eloquently, if perhaps more bitterly: &#8220;Arm in a sling/ I don&#8217;t owe you anything.&#8221;</span></td>
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<td><span style="font-size: small;"><strong><a href="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Weeknd.jpg" rel="shadowbox[sbpost-2079];player=img;" title="Weeknd"><img class="alignleft size-thumbnail wp-image-2099" title="Weeknd" src="http://sesquipedalism.com/wp-content/uploads/2011/07/Weeknd-150x150.jpg" alt="" width="105" height="105" /></a>01. &#8220;<a href="http://bit.ly/kWDGzU" target="_blank">Coming Down</a>,&#8221; The Weeknd</strong>: I, like most people, have spent a lot of time in dissatisfying romantic relationships because I cannot find the one that is satisfying. And I have, like most people, at times imagined I am strong enough to walk away; to roll the dice on finding that better love, and remain, while searching, unafraid of dying alone. And I, like most people, have found myself to be grievously mistaken in that assumption of personal strength. </span>&nbsp;</p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">Probably fewer people have spent the bulk of their life clinically miserable and unmedicated, excepting what they could find on the street (&#8220;With this money comes problems/ And with these problems come solutions/ And I use &#8216;em&#8221;). But those who have know that those moments when one fancies oneself strong enough to roll those dice always come when good and high, because blissed-out, the world seems a navigable place (&#8220;When I&#8217;m faded I forget/ Forget what you mean to me&#8221;). Which it is not. When the high starts to wear off, the terror sets in. And there&#8217;s no other feeling quite like being sickened by the absence of drugs in your system—which, in addition to already feeling lonely and dissatisfied, inevitably makes you feel pathetic and wretched—and realizing just how hideous the prospect of dying alone, unloved, really is. There&#8217;s no desperation that&#8217;s quite like that desperation. This is always worse when the other party in that dissatisfying relationship happens to be a wonderful human being, just not the human being for <em>you</em>. And suddenly you start to believe that whatever crude approximation of love you&#8217;ve been living with is enough. That you can Make It Work. And so you dedicate yourself all over again; you re-pledge your love and declare a redoubling of your efforts (&#8220;Pick up your phone/ The party&#8217;s finished and I want you to know/ I&#8217;m all alone/ And feeling everything before I got up&#8221;). This delusion continues for a little while, then the depression sets in when it can no longer be denied that, in fact, that faux-love is <em>not</em> enough. And what can be done about that depression? Depends on what you can find on the street. Repeat, ad nauseum. I&#8217;ve spent a lot of time living this cycle, which is why I find the song so perversely romantic.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">&#8220;I ain&#8217;t lied to nobody but me/ And you/ And me/ But you especially,&#8221; explains Abel Tesfaye, amidst plangent guitar, the ambient noise of rooms so empty they feel oppressive, and a repeated hiccup sound that calls to mind a consciousness spinning and skipping like a broken record, stuck on the same thought. <em>House of Balloons </em>is all nighttime music, but nothing on the LP feels quite so deep into the dark as &#8220;Coming Down.&#8221;</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">But the song can also be understood another way. &#8220;I always want you when I&#8217;m coming down&#8221; is a sentiment I&#8217;ve felt too many times to recollect because I&#8217;ve spent even more of my life as a single man and, in that case, the situation&#8217;s altogether different, but completely the same. Because I, like most people, once met someone who &#8220;got away.&#8221; It was ages ago. And for years, when I&#8217;d find myself miserable about some unrelated issue, I&#8217;d find a way to get myself blasted (&#8220;Poppin&#8217; again/ I tried to quit again&#8221;). And pills, booze, are great ways to get by for a while. &#8220;Faded,&#8221; as Tesfaye would say, the world seems a navigable place. Which it is not. But eventually, I would come down. All alone. Which is when the terror sets in. Because there&#8217;s no other feeling quite like being sickened by the sudden absence of drugs in your system, and lying there, feeling lonely, dissatisfied, pathetic, and wretched, I would always remember <em>her</em>. I&#8217;d long to crawl to the phone or the computer and look her up; find her phone number or Facebook, connect and tell her what she meant to me. Of course, I never did. But to this day, every hangover, when I feel wretched and pathetic, I remember her. In those moments, my life is a problem that she could solve. I always want her when I&#8217;m coming down. I&#8217;ve spent a lot of time living <em>this</em> cycle, which is why I find the song so perversely romantic.</span></p>
<p><span style="font-size: small;">It&#8217;s nice to know someone else has felt the same.</span></td>
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<p><span style="font-size: small;">Before the year is over, there&#8217;s still more to look forward to: new St. Vincent; How to Destroy Angels&#8217; debut LP; allegedly another <em>two</em> albums by The Weeknd; based on precedent, there will probably be an EP by my favorite band, Deerhunter; and the Reznor/Ross score to Fincher&#8217;s <em>Girl with the Dragon Tattoo</em>. That last features an unlikely collaboration between Reznor and the Yeah, Yeah, Yeahs&#8217; Karen O., knocking out <a href="http://bit.ly/kjL8k6" target="_blank">a cover of Led Zeppelin&#8217;s &#8220;Immigrant Song,&#8221;</a> which, like any Zeppelin cover I&#8217;ve heard, will likely be a total abortion or a recreation that almost eclipses the original. I can&#8217;t wait to find out.</span></p>
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